Thank you both for your kind words. I'm trying to do my best. I just feel like no one gets it and I dont want to be mean, its not my way. Like today for instance, my aunt and uncle came up to help me with leaves in my yard. I said ok but lets keep it to just the back because my foot is so bad. We ended up doing the whole yard. Now we dont have a big yard but we have to take the leaves, load them in a tarp and drag them about
half a block to dump them in the woods. Thats hard work. I wanted to say no thats it I'm done, but its my house so shouldnt I be helping? So I did what I normally do. I muddled thru and now, 2 hours later I can barely walk and am waddling like a duck. My feet hurt even when I sit. I mean should I have been nasty? I cant, they came to help me. But now I feel like I should have said, ok we are done thats it my feet hurt. Its times like this I question myself and pay the consiquences later.
On a side note, I have been on Methotrexate for about a year and a half now. No real bad side effects thank God. I do drink lots of water, especially when i take the pills. The one drug I do regret now, is the prednisone. I was on high doses (80 mg) a day for over a year. It was great at the time. I felt like there was never JRA there. However, I have recently had an xray done of my foot that hurts all the time. It showed that I have bone missing from the ankle joint. They say part of it is from years of having this disease. The other part was from steroids over a long period of time. If either of you have to be on this, please be careful and dont be on it long unless very necessary. Hopefully, no one will have the effect I have. From my mouth to Gods ears. Its days like today I want to give up. Hopefuly I will have a productive day without pain, and the reason to fight it will come back. Ya think? GB