Hi! I am new.... well sort of

I'm sure you will notice that I handle alot of things with humor and I always have.  Well, actually it got hard to handle anything with humor for the past couple years  because I was being horribly abused by my "has-been" for about 8 years now.  Basically since I became wheelchair bound.  My children and I have been living abuse free for 43 days now and I am so proud of my brave boys who also had to endure these years of systematic abuse day in and day out.  He should get the divorce papers today or tomorrow so I am scared he will come after me again, but I have new locks and windows barracaded and there's a lifetime restraining order so lets hope he stays away. 

Anyhow, I want to begin again to fight for the life we all deserve.  I've been without insurance for 4 years now and having to stop enbrel and other expensive meds has caused my diseases to progress terribly.  I am bedridden most of the time but have been "fighting" to regain some strength and mobility.  I have an appointment to see a rhuemy in 4 weeks and boy am I excited to see her!!  I can't wait to get back to living.  My primary already is getting enbrel paperwork ready.  My primary has been so great and actually was the one that helped me formulate a plan to get out of our abusive home.  She also has helped me with all my other medical conditions and I think has kept me sane through the struggles.   

I used to be really involved in the aol arthritis message boards.  Is there anyone here that used to be on those boards?  I've been reading here for a few days and of course, I connect with everyone's trials and tribulations.  I am really glad to be able to again focus on my health and to do the best I can and feel the best I can.  I'm really hoping I can fit in here as I feel kind of lost right now.

Sorry to ramble,  Suzee

Welcolme so life can only get better hay,it's good you have only 1 disease now, Abusive Ex's are like a disease and surgery - cut them out the only option.hopefully you have enough support systems to keep him out and keep you and kids safe.

this site is great and it also brings you back down to earth i was whinging about being bed ridden or in wheelchair but i have a very supportive (2nd) husband. then i see you it reminds me of the saying " i cried because i had no shoes then i met a man that had no feet"  Stay Safe,Stay Strong, and keep the humour it will get you thru

and what was your Rhumatoid Factor?