hi Theresa,
boy is this a terrible time huh? well just know that we are all here for you...yeah it's just a computer & sounds cheesy...but weirdly enough, it is a little bit of a serrogate family.
the link we all have in common is what binds.
so what...that's okay to have called for steroids. who cares! you did what was needed to be done, and don't let anyone make you feel like a whimp or make you feel like you should just "suck it up". i know how you feel,just as the majority of peeps here do as well.
it's a very scary period when things are not how we expected them to be. when disease takes a little turn for the worst? the mental aspect is sometimes more unbearable than the physical.
i remember when i started to get worse again, the fear was torture.
the hardest thing i had to learn to do was to NOT dwell on tomorrow & the future, it'll drive you crazy.
so i prepared for every scenario...for better or worse.
there's nothing i can say or do to make how you're feeling any better....but do take comfort in knowing that many are in the same exact spot as you are right now. if anything, it helps knowing we are not alone.
you never know what tomorrow will bring...don't lose optimism.
hang in there.