NOT a good day

Ok I'm just soo not having a good day!  Yesterday my Aunt and Uncle came over and we worked on my yard cleaning leaves.  Should I have said no?  It is my yard.  So I worked and worked.  Today takes me 40 minutes before I can walk out of bedroom cause I'm so stiff, then I take the day to rest and tonite I'm still walking like a duck and the pain is where I cant get comfortable standing or sitting.  I tried taking a nap to escape the pain like I used to, and that didnt work because I couldnt get my feet in a comfy position.  I ended up getting more annoyed.  My lil girl came home from school and I was walking to slow and she goes, mom you walk to slow.  She is 6 so she doesnt know any better.  I text my husband that I'm having a bad day and he goes well honey you should be happy you have 2 feet to walk on.  I said, tell ya what? you break both your feet and walk on them without the bone being set and without a cast and tell me if your happy you can walk on 2 feet.  He apologized and I know he didnt mean it in a bad way.  I think at this point he just doesnt know what to say to me to make me feel better.  They cant find a pain medicine for me that wont knock me out and so pain meds are out because I have a 6 yr old to care for.  Cant be tired.  My sed rate is great at a 3 so no inflammation its just 34 years of disease damage!  Hub is not home all week cause he has work and school so its me and my daughter.  So I dont have a choice I have to push myself and then of course at nite I'm in pain and then cant sleep.  Its a visious cycle.  And I'm tired of pain and I'm tired of complaining about the pain to my family.  Ok I vented I feel a little better. GB all

Hi I am sending very soft hugs to you.

You poor thing, I'm so sorry you're having a bad time at the moment    but I'm glad you came on and vented your frustration here, because that's what it's here for .  Having said that it must be hard especially with a little one.  Our partners see us in pain and my husband explains on many occassions that it is difficult for him as he can see it in my eyes and be there when I like you have the odd off day and feel sorry for myself, but other than support us they can do nothing. They can't take the pain away.  I'm the same as you in as much as, I have been in pain 24/7 for nearly two years now in the ankle/foot area, I walk with a limp, have a disabled sticker for my car and haven't worn an enclosed shoe in all this time! I also can't have pain management due to the fact that it would be so much that my specialist feels I'm too young to be sat in a chair out of it high on meds (I'm only 53) I agree as I have a job (which I fortunately can do from home) and I'm a fully paid up member of society, so want to be connected.

All I can do is be here, listen and like all others send you 'gently hugs'. Let us know how you are going forward.

Peggy