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Posted 2/6/2008 5:27 PM (GMT 0)
 

im adjusting to my meds nicely and I was back at the p doc today .. he has upped my tegretol , and lowered the rivotril .. and is happy with me .. also told me its important to go for therapy ... I have an appointment at 6.30 pm tomorrow evening.

Its so hard to explain .... all my life I have been told im the naughty child .. the rebellious teenager ... the troublesome daughter .. the difficult sister in other words for 46 years it has been drummed into me that im just a a pain ..... I have no idea whats normal ... I dont even know who I am . confused   I know I must be patient but im battling a bit .

All I know is I want to learn to play the piano again of all things eyes I enjoyed it as a child scool

Life sucks sometimes ... oh well my dogs love me :-)

Posted 2/6/2008 6:24 PM (GMT 0)
hi carol,
piano sounds cool,life sucks for me too now a days.oh well hope you feel better .give a shout anytime you want.i love parrots.
hugz
katy
Posted 2/7/2008 2:26 AM (GMT 0)
 

Thanks Katy .....

Its weird .. I seem to be noticing "things" again .... music, beauty .. and all the things I enjoyed as a child ... I actually feel so cheated ...

You like parrots ??? well if my two conures scream again this am im making snoopy stew with peanuts gravy tongue

Snoopy is my sun conure and peanuts the jenday and I had a discussion with them yesterday about this issue .. Phoenix my Timneh Grey agreed tongue

Posted 2/7/2008 7:35 PM (GMT 0)
How nice that all of a sudden you're starting to get some life back in you again. I've always wanted to play the piano as well.

It's frustrating to realize that all those negative things you've been fighting your whole life are in some way related to an illness which you might not have had yet, but which was "brewing" in you all that time. But try not to feel cheated. Better to feel positive that something's being done about it now. You won't have to live the rest of your life that way.

serafena
Posted 2/8/2008 3:13 AM (GMT 0)
 

Thanks serafina .. my therapist was quite firm with me yesterday ....... I have to be patient take one day at a time and get used to my meds ..... and be a good girl :-)

Hubs has to go to counselling with me next week .. because she feels its vital that he does .. as she pointed out its going to be of little use to get me sorted and watch my marriage disintegrate and hubs doesnt know what to do with me .... poor man

Posted 2/8/2008 5:54 PM (GMT 0)
Is your husband willing to do it? It sounds like a good idea.
Posted 2/9/2008 7:58 PM (GMT 0)
From Carolsclan:

Yes he is .... he put up with me for 10 years now he is as lost as I am :-)
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