I NEED HELP!!

I'am a 51 yr old male who thinks he might be bipolor. Only thing is i havent worked in a long time and have no money to seek professional help. I had a very bad child hood and up bringing. And now i have been married 3 times...cant hold a job because i get to moody and angry. Iam always putting my myself down. I can be in a good mood one minute and then blow up over nothing the next. Iam depressed about 90% of the time anymore. I have found a woman now whom iam really in love with but we to have are problems because of my moods. Sometimes i just shut up completly and not say a word to anyone. Iam very frighten of many people around me at one time is this normal sometimes i wonder. I get very nervous and start to sweat. And even get very sick. If it was up to me i would enclose myself up in a room somewheres and never come out. I try and explain things to her amd not sure she even understands. I thought with her being a nurse at one time she would. But still things blow up between us. I do relize i need help just dont know where or even if i can find it. I have no insurance or money and i have just moved here to texas to be with her. but am afraid if i dont get help that i need soon .. i will just loose her as well. So if anyone has any suggestion. or if you think i might could have bipolor please let me know. My youngest daughter has bipolor as well. Thank you Cecil

Hi Cecil,

I think you should ignore what "Haha" wrote to you in the last post. Doesn't sound right to me.

My dad is bi-polar. He has been since his teen years, and he's now 56. He was diagnosed and started Lithium treatments about 10 years ago. What a difference it has made for him and us! Unfortunately, his marriage to my mom ended after 8 years, due to his mood swings. It really does play a huge factor in relationships Cecil.  I know it may be expensive to get treatment, but isn't it worth it to have your life back? to have a steady, even, healthy relationship with your special woman? I really hope you get care for this. I know as a daughter of someone with manic depression, that it means EVERYTHING in the world to have your parent and partner in a healthy state of mind. Do it for YOU!!!!!!

 

All the best,

Ginny

Hi there,my sister was just diagnosed with bipolar and cannot work, she applied for dissability, which I did get for my mental illness and she got help like food stamps and even a medical card.. There are places that will help you get on your feet. she was recently in the hospital and her medical card paid it all.  You should apply for some help look up local resorces online, ask around. Home of grace can guide you to places as well. I hope your girlfriend will read online all about depression, possible bipolar symptoms and family support. You cant go on without getting her educated on mental health problems. Please look for help in all kinds of places. best of luck to you and to her.