I am only 43 and agriphobic, I only go out of the house for Drs apointments can anyone relate?

I was ALWAYS outgoing and the life of the party until bipolar hit me a long time ago. I have been in remission a few times but other than that, it has been hell. I was just in remission for almost two years, it was so great. now I am crashing and my world is getting smaller and smaller, ive become more isolated and my husband who is usually very supportive was not last night when i was trying to talk to him and that devistated me and now I feel all alone. we travel with his job so I dont have friends to turn to. sometimes I want to go to the mall or something but i start getting alot of fear and dread. I hate to be this way so young. I hope my new therapist can help me with this. I am too young for this. i know i put alot of extra strain on my husband to get groceries and stuff, it makes me feel very awful.  I think alot of people think I am lazy because I sleep alot from meds and depression. That hurts too doesnt it?  well i will stop rambling,I hope someoneout there can relate.   NancyJay

Hey, thanks for responding.. I can go some places like to the dr and to get my hair done, things that have to be done and sometimes I cant, I cancel the apointments. I like knowing ahead when I have to go somewhere so I can sort of plan ahead in a way, prepare myself. They say that its just another form of anxiety. My husband has to buy all the grocerys, pick up all of my meds, everything! which im sure you do too. I understand her guilt. It makes you feel totally guilty. It makes me feel like my family who know think i am lazy which is really hard to deal with. But I will go to the web and look up agriphobic sites. thanks so much for the reply, I am glad it was from a spouse.