angry today

Rave away, maggiern. It's much healthier to write about it than to purge. Don't hurt your body over their idiocy. Take an anxiety pill if you need to.

You're sensitive to other people, like I am. I'm very keen to my environment and I have a terrible time letting other people's behaviors and emotions just roll away. I'm hyperaware, as my therapist puts it, and take their emotions on myself, try to fix things, or if not, I let the emotions tear me up inside. I can't relax. They trigger my SI, I can't relax, I get irritable.

We have to practice letting other people just have their own emotions and actions and not feel responsible for them. They are their decisions and have nothing to do with us, no matter how stupid or ill-conceived they are, we can't stop or intervene in ever action every person makes. You'll drive yourself nuts. You don't have to rescue everyone. You don't have to take so much crap. Rock the boat a little -- tell them to leave you alone, you're not feeling well.

This is where therapy comes in useful. Are you seeing someone?

(((hugs)))
serafena

Is it your family that is giving you are hard time? My mom and dad does the same thing with me. Sometimes they make off handed comments for instance, my dad says that I am really messed up in the head and my mom sometimes is just very cruel and standoffish towards me. 99% of the time, I don't do anything at all to provoke their behavior towards me. I just mainly stay to myself in my bedroom all the time so I don't provoke anything- if it wasn't for my piece of crap computer, I think I would really go insane. I just wanted to say that I know where you are coming from- why should we be labeled Bipolar and forced to take meds when there are jerks out there that are much worse than we are. Take care and try to not hurt your body by purging- God Bless

I edited your post for language. Serafena.

Post Edited By Moderator (serafena) : 1/29/2009 3:54:42 PM (GMT-7)

I was just going through my post and since I wrote that I had a terrible episode.  I took too many ativan and shaved all my hair off because someone at work said something bad about it.  I just put this all together after what my family told me and what little I can remember.  When I took the pills and cut my hair I can't remember anything, not even taking the pills.  I am feeling better each day, my husband did not take me to the hospital and so him and my son took turns watching me.  I still feel as if my skin is crawling at times and got a wig to go out, but rarely leave.  I only work once or twice a week so that helps.  But now reading your posts thank you.

If I may ask, is that a "normal" s/s of bp feeling as though your skin is crawling?  My bp husband c/o the same symptoms of itchy skin, feeling as though his skin is crawling!

Yes, poodles is correct. It's a common complaint, I believe. Many of us feel too much energy and emotion and feel trapped inside our skin, hence the crawling.