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Posted 5/18/2009 3:59 AM (GMT 0)
Please let us know how your week has been going, I hope all is well.

Olivia yeah
Posted 5/18/2009 2:56 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Olivia,

I hope everyone is doing okay. It's good to check in.

I'm doing alright this Monday. We were away last week for a visit to my in-laws. Now I have awesome in-laws. I love them dearly. But after a week, I'm jumping out of my skin. I want to be ALONE. No matter how much everyone says I can take some time for myself or how much I actually take (not much) I am way too keyed up and anxious to relax. And even though my MIL is a therapist, and they are all pretty open about my bipolar, at times they seem like they don't really believe me. It's weird, like I'm making a bigger deal out of my feelings than I should. (I don't know, maybe I am.) But by the end of the week I just want to clam up and be alone and everyone starts asking me what's wrong because I'm being so quiet. I want to be more vivacious, but I just can't.

We did some really fun things on the trip -- I don't mean to make it sound all bad. It wasn't. But emotionally these long trips are hard on me. I was so ready to come home yesterday. Today, my 3-year old is back in preschool. My husband is off doing his own thing and I have my brain to myself again. Aaaahhh.

serafena
Posted 5/19/2009 3:57 AM (GMT 0)
Serafena I know what you mean about the inlaws. Mine are wonderful, but feeling like you are always being "studied" can be overwhelming.

I have had a good week. My kids are in their last 2 weeks of school, so we are busy with end of the year stuff. My 11 yr. old is home with a flu, so at least I have a reason to stay home and do some stuff around here I have been wanting to do.

Oh...my tomato plants are really taking off this year!
Posted 5/19/2009 4:46 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Olivia and Serefena and Mommy.Michelle!! :)

Our week has been peaceful. My husband is away at the Mental Health Facility for another week and it's nice to have been able to get my house back in order. He came for an over night visit on the weekend and Sunday was really a horrible day. He basically slept for most of the morning and didn't spend much time with me or the kids much at all. I got really upset, said a few things I now regret, and took him back. I went down there tonight with the kids and picked him up and we went for dinner. It was nice and relaxed... I don't know how it's going to be when he gets home and I want to ask if he can stay longer... I feel guilty for that and I love him and WANT him to come home, but I don't feel like anything can change in 2 weeks... here's hoping! :)
Posted 5/19/2009 3:11 PM (GMT 0)
As for me, things are no better.

All that have encouraged me, I thank you. My wife remains at the Shelter, both letters I sent to her returned with her handwriting the "return to sender" There's nothing I can do but wait and hope.

I may a decision yesterday, and have scheduled an appointment for me with a counselor, perhaps with some assistance from her, I can convince my wife to attend soon.

Otherwise, I'm just pacin' the cage.
Posted 5/21/2009 7:20 PM (GMT 0)
Hi everyone. I too hope all are having a good week.

I'm more emotionally stable since the doc upped my seroquel. But I only want to sleep. Just to sleep. That isn't good, and will have to get better, or we are going to have to try something different. I have a family to take care of.
I know ya'll all understand. We are people with responsibilities, not just illnesses.
Posted 5/23/2009 7:39 PM (GMT 0)
Yesterday and today have not been so good.  I had to work two busy days in a row at work and started to get a little aggitated and a little paraynoid at the end of the day yesterday.  I can't seem to sit still I do not know what is going on.  I took ativan, but it is not helping, my legs just want to keep moving.  I did not sleep at all last night so I have been trying to rest today, but I have a lot of people coming over tomorrow  and the house needs cleaned and I can't do it right now.   I also missed my dose of Geodon last night I am not sure if that might be it.  HELP!!!  I feel as if I am going to explode. confused
Posted 5/24/2009 6:43 PM (GMT 0)
I'm hangin in there! You all know what that means! :o)

 

Hey serafena,  I know what you mean about really needing time for yourself but having a hard time finding it.

 

If I stay at home, I will always find something that needs to get done.

 

So, what I do is to actually make plans to get out of the house!

 

Find something you like to do.  I go to the zoo by myself.

 

Maybe you might like to go to the library, a nice long quiet walk somewhere outdoors, take yourself out to lunch or dinner alone or with a friend, sit on a park bench away from children, wink   etc.  You get the idea.

 

Have a peaceful day.

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