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Posted 10/11/2009 6:57 PM (GMT 0)
I'm wondering about the experiences of going inpatient.  I personally am still having a hard time.  I'm incredibly stressed out with the new job....shoot I was already stressed before the job and now I have even more on my shoulders.  I was working really hard to get myself and moods in order but they just are not getting better.  I try to hold it in as much as I can but it's just not getting better.

If you have gone inpatient can  you please share your experiences?  Did it help you out and be able to go home better able to deal with things?  Just basically share anything and everything that you dealt with.  It's something that I am really thinking about but I don't want to leave my employer and my family in a bad place.....which again means that I'm not putting myself first.

TIA for anything you can tell me.

Posted 10/11/2009 7:47 PM (GMT 0)
What does your doc say about the medications you are taking?
Posted 10/11/2009 9:25 PM (GMT 0)
A couple of years ago I went inpatient at Four Winds Hospital in Kathonah, NY. My gradfather had just died and my depression was debilitating; I couldn't eat, sleep, talk, even go to the bathroom. I was a junior in high school and had a lot on my plate as far as school was concerned. My social worker at school was the one that had me go. She called up my parents and told them that they might loose me if they didn't do something about it, in other words I felt that suicide was my only option for happiness. The hospital was like a blessing in diguise, it threw me in the right direction by putting me on meds for the first time in my life. I don't know how extreme what your going through is, but I would say if you feel like I did I would choose your mental health over anything else and go inpatient.
Posted 10/12/2009 1:09 AM (GMT 0)
Hi topsyturvy,

I'm so sorry to hear you're having a hard time. I've been inpatient twice, once just last August. If your doc or therapist is encouraging you to do it, I would really consider it. I've found it very helpful both times.

Being in the hospital is stressful in that you would rather be elsewhere, but it's also the great anti-stress. It's group therapy, meeting with doctors, and a lot of boredom. I spent a lot of time reading magazines and coloring. Yes, coloring. You have no responsibility whatsoever except to get well. In that respect it's good because it makes you slow down and concentrate on feeling better. Plus, they have the ability to modify and monitor your medications in a way that your doc can't do when you only see him or her every so often.

I think it sounds like your mood is letting you know that this job is too much for you right now. I know you said your husband likes having you helping out with the income, but you have to put your health first. There's no point in getting sick, which only costs more in the long run. Maybe you could go part time or work less than you're working now? Or maybe you'll have to just try again another time when you're feeling better. For what it's worth, I'm working part time right now, but more than I have in a long time, and I was only in the hospital 6 weeks ago. It's made a huge difference for me.

Good luck,
serafena
Posted 10/12/2009 4:27 AM (GMT 0)
Thank you so much Serfena.

I really don't want to go inpatient but this job has added so much stress that it's unbelievable. I mean I was already dealing with a lot and was making progress until I took this job and then got into it. Now I have hair coming out by handfuls when I run my fingers through my hair.

I even told my husband that something has to change or I'm going inpatient and at that point he knew I was serious.

I know that my meds are still in the works.....I take Klonopin (which I don't notice much difference) Seroquel (which has been upped to 200mg but I can't take it like that while working cause it knocks me out for longer then when I need to be up), I take Savella for the fibro but it works as a anti-depressant to I guess, plus I take ambien with the Seroquel.

I don't think the med's are right cause I'm still just so off and can't see to reach the surface and feel like somewhat of a normal person.
Posted 10/12/2009 9:13 AM (GMT 0)
Most programs offer inpatient and day treatment plans. The day plans usually have you at the hospital facility by 8:30 pm and you are dismissed at 5:00 pm. The programs involve a daily consultation with your doctor for medical evaluations and adjustments, a review or a variety of coping skills and techniques to lower your stress levels. Art therapy physical therapy, behavior modification techniques, biofeed back, work on positive vs. negative interactions with other people, etc, etc, Physicial exercise is also important. Many patients enjoy being able to go home and sleep in their own beds - while others prefer am inpatient setting where they are removed from their home s during the intense treatment plan.

If you feel like you are slipping and the 1/2 hour or 45 minute appointments with the doctor are not getting to the bottom of your problem, then a more intensive program is most likely necessary. You need to talk with you doctor to see what your options are and which program best better suit your needs.

Once you have all the information, you can then decide what you are most comfortable with and what the doctor and staff feel would work for you.

Good luck.
Posted 10/12/2009 5:10 PM (GMT 0)
Today is so much worse then yesterday, when I first posted the question.

I called in today to my job but I didn't call in till I knew she'd be up. Well she ended up being up early so she took it upon herself to call my husbands employment...she didn't ask for him particularly she just asked the place of employment so he is ticked off at me.

I am so beyond stressed with this job that my hair is falling out by the handful. This person I am working for has some serious issues personally and even more serious issues with her business. I've only been there for a week and everything is falling onto me and I have no responsibility in no way to what is going on with her business. I was searching through trash bags with trash in them for peoples taxes that she has misplaced. All this has just knocked me back on the progress that I was making.

So now I have a job that stresses me out a great deal and now my husband is mad because of this woman and something that I couldn't control.
Posted 10/13/2009 3:28 AM (GMT 0)
I have been inpatient two times... the first time was the most horrible experience of my life. My parents couldn't legally be part of my treatment, so the doctors did whatever they wanted. I was an absolute vegetable for 6 weeks. They kept me in full restraints for over half my stay. It wasn't until after I got out of the hospital that I really got the help that I needed. Find a good pdoc who understands the severity of the problems you are having right now AND see how much they can help you. Maybe they are part of an inpatient program.

Good Luck
Posted 10/13/2009 8:42 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Ramie,

I'm sorry to hear about your disorder as well as the disorder in your work life.

OMG, it sounds so miserable.

I went through a stressful experience at work related to my depression and how I approached my work when I get depressed. In mildly depressive situations I created these support tools that helped me do my job better. BUT when I got more depressed I could not judge anything, so to overcompensate I would work more, and stress more.

Eventually I got to the very edge of the abyss, left work, checked into the hospital bp 190/130. Extreme suicidal thoughts.

I spent the best three days of my life inpatient. I felt safe. I received therapy, got my meds straightened out. It finally got my life turned around. I'm happy, don't cycle any more. I have my judgement back. Every day now is a delightful gift.

Yes, once in the docs have to let you out. That is a bit freaky. And this place was very nice. Private rooms. People checking in on you. No belts or shoelaces.

But I got better.

I hope you do, too.
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