Going back to bad behaviours again....

What's wrong with me.. I know I'm bipolar....but why do I have to keep making the same stupid mistakes over and over again.

I just saw my nurse and doctor recently and my doc asked does you're husband "take care" of you. I said yes....I lied. He loves me...but doesn't have time to "take care" of me. He is so busy and over stressed we just don't get time with each other and that means I have been
straying from the nest over and over again....looking for someone to fill the void...I am using metaphors cause I don't want to provide gory details of what is going on with me...let's just say I am a bad wife and I am having trouble keeping out of trouble....does this mean I'm in a manic phase or does it just mean I am incapable of being a nun and going without.

I am so stressed over this , it is starting to effect the quality of my sleep and I am a spiritual person and my spiritual life is going out the window. I need to hear what everyone else does when these issues come up....and this problem with my hubby has been this way for years and there is never a real solution for it...it just goes on and on and on and it seems I have to be superwoman to deal with it....it drives me nuts....

Anyways, enough said. I sure would like to hear what you all have to say about this and if any of you have ever conquered this problem.

Hope I am not too vague, that no one knows what I am saying, I just can't bring myself to say it specifically, thanks for listening.

Christine.

My husband and I have a quite different problem. though we love each other very much, and our marriage is by no means in danger in any way, we're simply not compatible when it comes to sex. he likes things one way, i like things another way. He has his own issues that I;d rather not go into here anyway, so we've solved the problem. we have an open marriage. he's allowed to go have a girlfriend, and I can have a boyfriend. We still spend plenty of intimate time with each other, but we both get to have our needs met elsewhere.

Of course, we both can tell the other one no about their secondary choice of relationship, but as long as the lines of communication stay open, and neither of us hide anything from the other, things work out just fine.

His work schedule often means that I'm left hanging, either he's not here, or he's too tired, and my unpredictable moods means the same for him, so this way, we both can get what we need. It also means, for me, that I have closer friends to share my feelings with, who can understand where my head is at without having to worry about the intricacies of a full head on relationship.

Does this mean I'm a bad person? or that he is? no, we just lead a different life then others, and have a different outlook. Our life works for us, but it doesn't mean it will work for others. Not everyone can share their partner, so I count myself as lucky.

And btw, I'm currently on painkillers for a nasty toothache pending a rootcanal, which is probally the only reason i'm being so open about my life, so i might regret sharing such details later, though I'm by no means ashamed of the life I live.

Thank you both for your input. I have to honest for me the only solution is fidelity. Personally I can't sleep nights if I do it any other way.

But that's just me, I am like that. Thank you both for being so honest. I actually didn't get an email telling me about the replies so I thought no one had seen my post.

I am doing better today, didn't slip up yet, still a few hours left to go. I hope and pray I can pull this off. I am so grateful I can come here and vent. It really helps and does make a difference.

Hope you both have a good weekend and thanks again for replying to my post. You learn a lot when you come here.

Take care,

Christine.

Tainted, thank you. You are right about that, I guess I have alot of work to do.

Thank you for taking the time to respond.

Doing ok for now, hope it continues.

Take care and have a great week.

Christine

Thanks Bill, Hanging in there by my toenails, can't say it was a total victory,
but I think I must have a guardian angel that keeps protecting me so everything is still ok for now.

Thanks for all your support, Bill, Tainted, Kiraz. It means alot to me to be able to share my struggles and get support for it.

Thank you again.

Christine

Haldol might be causing some of your problems Christine....I was on it once,never again.It's not even good for kids....