Good days and bad days.

   Well it is almost a month to the day since i left my wife, and that said things are startign to settle down into a rythmn.

   I have had a few "bad days" where i have looked on CL for sex. But nothing came of it as i was able to recover myself after doing it. I kinda hit my own reset button. But since there is no "crime" commited, i count it as a success. Plus with all the stress i've been under i'm not really surprised.

   I am cutting back on the 24 hour shifts at base and replacing them with day work at sears and bike shop. I dont sleep at base so it compounds the problem and makes my body worse.

  THe good is how right i feel, it is like a weight has been lifted. I am walking thor every night i am off, and him and i have loved that. My wife has settled down and even offered to help pay for some of my stuff she destroyed, that is a huge step there.

    ALl in all i am hitting the vitiams hard, trying to eat well, ride more, and stress less. I am in much better shap financially, since i have complete control i am not digging out from her spending issues. I can handle the load, and if she actually gives me money each paycheck i can make even faster progress. But bit by small bit i am creating a new life for myself that feels very good.

   Ok, thats the happy bill progress report. I am alive, well, and still very happy. I might be alone (don't all you ladies go thinking i can be had for cheap , well actually, i am cheap )  And learing how to live this new chapter of my life.

     Bill

spending issues. SInce i lost so much my natural inclination is to replace it asap. I have to fight that urge and save, save, save.  Once  i get a bit saved, then i can afford to splurge a bit here and there.

   Bill

Hey Bill,

WOW just realized I've been logged on since last week...Anyway, glad to hear from you. How is it that you are walking Thor nights you are off? Isn't Thor with your wife? Just curious, bc I know how much you both mean to each other so I am glad you are able to spend time with him.

I am glad you have made the change in the 24 hour shift. I think that was smart. And I know you are working hard on other issues you struggle with, so I continue to be proud of you!

Hugs,

Talk to you soon,

Mogs