When you say you "hurt yourself" are you talking about cutting or some other
kind of self-injury?
I ask because my bi-polar son has been a cutter for years but from what I understand
it's not from his bi-polar disorder, he has a mild case of OCD and it's more a behavior
of that. It's stress related and his cutting is a distraction from the stress.
I can't begin to understand it but it's a scary problem. He's 18 and I just hope he
might out grow it.
If this is what you are referring to, post again and maybe I can give you some advise.
Either way I am sorry you not feeling well.