Yea, my soon to be ex wife said i was using BP as an excuse. Even though i was clean and sober once i got treatment, what i did before was clearly my fault. In her mind BP was no excuse. To bad she never lived a day in my shoes, to see what it was like to deal with all that mess without the help of medication.
Then later when i got out she was trying to convince me that it was something else, not bp. But that doesnt explaing why the medicine has worked so well for me.
Most people i have talked to cant understand it, they see it as a character flaw of mine that i cant control this. I have said here before its like i wanted to understand childbirth. I can read every book, watch every movie, talk to thousands of women about it, but in the end i will only have the palest of ideas of what its like to give birth. Same for those who's brains are normal. They just cant understand a world where their brain doesnt work well. TO them we are just making excuses for our inability to control ourselves.
Personally i have given up, i still tell people that matter to me that i am BP and thats about it. They can never understand, so why bother. Unless they ask, i don;t care one way or another if they "get" me or not.
Bill