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Posted 5/8/2011 5:45 AM (GMT 0)
Hi,
I have Bipolar I, I'm 20 years old and am on several medications to control not only my bipolar but GAD. I've had the week from hell: Physical altercation with my mother (whom I rarely see), Issues with my doctor, rapid cycling, and serious relationship issues with the guy I've been dating the past two years.
I don't really have anyone to talk to outside of my therapist who I haven't been able to see lately. The boyfriend hates hearing about my problems and I don't know how to relate my issues to my friends and my family is... not so great.
I need someone to talk to and someone to help, all of this is making me want to go out and buy oxy and blow my klonipin along with cutting (something I have been free of for a few months).
Anyone help would be great.
Thanks
Posted 5/8/2011 6:02 AM (GMT 0)
explain what exactly is wrong and maybe i could help.:)
Posted 5/8/2011 6:09 AM (GMT 0)
Its a longer story: More or less I am feeling extremely overwhelmed and misunderstood. My mother set the week off by coming to see me, which only ended in a fight about me seeing a doctor and her smacking me. I started rapid cycling the last few days, mania then depression and then mania again all within a few hours and the mania has been associated with a lot of rage. My doctor keeps changing my medication. And my boyfriends "accidentally" kissed another girl (she kissed him).
My self esteem is in the toilet: I feel worthless, unlovable, and unfixable
I'm craving something to make the pain stop. Or at least someone to talk to because I feel isolated.
Posted 5/8/2011 7:37 PM (GMT 0)
Emmabee, you MUST get all off this drama out of your life. Communicate with your mother only in writing. In mail, not email. Ditch the boyfriend.

Imagine yourself free of this mess. You cannot be well when your environment and the people in your life are making you sick.

((hugs)) my dear!
Posted 5/8/2011 10:38 PM (GMT 0)
EmmaBee:

I second what Tortoise says: please take some time for yourself. Go to a park or a hike, watch a favorite movie, anything to get your mind off these problems. You need a break from all this turmoil. If you can, go buy a cat or dog of your choice. Pets can be a tremendous stress reliever b/c they give us unconditional love. They trust us and are always there. That's an option for you. resist the urge to do destructive things. Pray to God and ask Him for help.
You are not alone b/c most of us here have been where you are today. Keep us updated. We want to support you!!
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