Please let this bring new hope. :(

I found a psychiatrist who will see me this Friday. It is going to cost me, but I suppose if he can help me it is worth it. I'm beginning to think I need more than just seizure medicine. I hope this helps me. I'm feeling helpless and I really need these thoughts to go away. They are beginning to scare me. Thanks so much to all of you for being here for me. You're all I've got.

Tristan, the most important factor influencing whether you get well is YOU and you are taking effective action to get stuff sorted. Support does help - and those of us who don't have family and friends (or understanding within them), get lots out of coming here. Welcome to the HW family... we both have family and friends here afterall ((((hugs))))

Hi,

I went to the doc today. We talked about some things, and I told him how I cannot take much more of the thoughts in my head. I go to see him again on Monday, then on Friday, which seems very frequent; better than going to the hospital I suppose. I still keep thinking about the same things though. I know that one appointment isn't going to change everything, but I really cannot stand the same thoughts circling through my head. It's becoming ridiculous. I feel stuck. I almost feel like I belong in the hospital right now, though that is the last place I want to be.. He put me on Prozac, so I am going to start taking that. I have no idea if it will work, but at this point I will try it. I just hope it doesn't cause weight gain or anything. Now I'm just rambling..I'm so sorry. I just need to stop talking now.

Goodnight.

Tristan

Tristan,

It is not at all uncommon to see a pdoc frequently when you are feeling like you are. I am hoping the prozac gives you relief from all the thoughts. I know how hard it is to get those circling thoughts out of your head. I have a real problem with that myself. Just try to be patient and hopefully you will start getting some relief so you don't have to be hospitalized. We are here for you!