Denied again, again, and again

I applied for social security in 2005 and I am still getting denied. I don't understand this last denial said that there was no medical evidence proving me disabled. And that I have use of my hands for grasping. I haven't worked in the last two years when the doctors took me off work medically and still haven't released me to go back to work.

I have Bipolar Disorder with rapid cycling, Borderline personality disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, social anxiety disorder, ocd, depression, paranoia, hear voices that tell me to do bad things sometimes. Yet social security says there is no evidence I have been hospitalized twice in the past year for suicide attempts. My medicines help sometimes but sometimes i have remissions and they are severe. Everyone knows how it is "you don't wake up in the morning and know what kind of mood you are going to be in that day", "you can be in a good mood and someone say something and you take it wrong or offensively and the rage is released" my moods shift so much sometimes that I feel like I am crazy. My thoughts race, I can't grab ahold of one thought and focus on it. I went untreated for 24 years. What does social security need from me. I need advice from those that may be going through what I am right now. Thanks so very much for your time, I look forward to hearing from each of you.

Deeply Lost,
I read your post & honestly felt like I was reading part of my own story. I am Bipolar 2 (terrible depression),
Borderline Personality Disorder (paranoia), Anxiety/Panic Disorder, Ptsd.

I applied back in the 90's for disability for my Bowel & colitis problems. I lived on the toilet everyday for hours on end. I was denied, then I got an Attorney & denied again, appealed & went before the same judge & denied again. He said he was offended to look at me as I was bald from a Hair loss disease. He humiliated me & I tried to explain that having no hair had nothing to do with what I was filing for. I gave up after 4 years.

Then about 3-4 months ago I applied again. I had listed my bowel issues, & then added my Mental Health issues. I was denied again. So, next Monday I'm going to try and locate a SS Attorney that will represent me for my appeal. I now also have a couple other things to add on claim. I had to have an ileostomy in May, & I am suffering from Pelvic/Bladder Trauma & Dysfunction...which is unbearably painful. Hoping that with all this continued medical problems that I will finally be approved.

It is so stressful going thru the filing and such & then to be denied & them not believe how bad off we are...it makes me cry. I wish I could work but I haven't been able to work for 23-years.

I wish you all the best & keep us up to date on how your doing...Hang in there & try to keep smiling & fighting for your rights.
Your Healingwell Friend,
Serenitee

If you ever want to email (as sometimes due to the policies here there are certain things we can't discuss, as it may trigger someone)...just click my name Serenitee & it will take you to my profile with my email address.
Bye4Now

 Sorry, you are having such a hard time with trying to get your disability. We applied for my husband's and was denied the first time which is the norm.We got a attorney and he was awarded his after 2 years. I am no expert on the matter, but all physicians records are very important. Also, I kept a journal of my husbands daily routines and his attorney told us we had very good records. I don't know if this helps but if you have someone who is willing to help get all of your medical records from drs. hospitals, and counselors it may prove helpful. I am not saying you don't have these things in order, I only know what our atty. told us. I wish you the very best. Don't give up.