bipolar and in a confused state!

hi i think i might be going through a low these days i cry at the drop of a hat not eating AT ALL have no energy no desire to do anything i think it might be the begining of another episode of depression and then leading to mania i'm scared and dont want to go through that again. i have been taking my meds regularly so i dont understand why i never feel happy like normal people. i am so tired of feeling scared and anxious all the time....it's exhausting

Sorry you are so down...definitely sound like you are on the way down. I know how weary you can get going from one mood to another. I hate to plan anything to far down the road, because I have no idea what my mood will be. What sounds like a good idea one day, a week later it can seem totally impossible to do. Yes, it is exhausting, but I do agree...time to see your pdoc as soon as possible. Maybe your meds need adjusting or even changing a bit. It took many, many med changes for me before the pdoc found a combination that works pretty well, so hang in there...it can get better. And if your doc is not aggressive in treating your mood swings , it may be time to find someone new.