help

Hey guys

I am a 22 year old female

Let me explain who I was about 7 months ago, pretty smart (smarter than the average, with a very good aptitude for math and English) very happy, talkative, energetic, very sexual, very creative (I am a photographer/graphic designer) and stable

Now let me explain who I am i get confused easily I type words backwards without realizing, I feel hollow and useless, very quiet, I either cannot sleep ( I had insomnia a while back) or I sleep long periods ( between 12 and 17 hours) I have absolutely no sex drive (I went from wanting it every night to barely kissing my partner, I still find him attractive) and not being creative at all, I barely pick up my camera.

I will very often get VERY bad headaches which is accompanied by a stiff neck and a pain in my eyes, like the back of my eye ball is aching.

I used to party and drink a lot but haven't had more than a glass of wine with dinner for about a year and a half

Please let me know if you have any clue what is wrong with me.

I feel like I am only half of the person I was

My thoughts were to see a Dr/Psychologist BUT I am not loaded (being so young) not on medical aid either, nope no medication, I stay as far away from pills as possible as I have drug addiction on both sides of my family and I have a very addictive personality I rather not touch anything even headache pills

if its a pill I wont pop it

I will go see a Doc in the next week

 

  Hi trip, i also hate pills. But here is my take on it. Ive never wanted to kill myself when elevated or hypomanic. But i have wanted to die when i was depressed. Death is kinda a big downer. LOL LOL SO dont be afraid to treat the depression with the proper meds. I have never heard of anti depression meds being addictive.

   Pills are a resourse to help  you live your life. Yes you can say no to any meds, but then you will be miserable and unhappy all your days. That seems a steep price to pay for not taking meds.

   Altertive treats do exist and do work. I live with BP with almost no meds at all. (once or twice a month i take a pill as needed). I am very successful and quite happy with life. But it took 4 years of hard work to get to this point.

  Good luck.

  Bill