Posted 12/12/2012 6:12 PM (GMT 0)
I don't know if you can call it "psychosis". Knowing it is part of your pattern of bipolar symptoms empowers you to take action to control how much it affeects your family.
I get like that too. Often for me it is anxiety + hypomania. When I get my time off, the anxiety subsides and I miss my family. I try to find overnight events to attend like a seminar for work. Staying alone in a hotel is very soothing at those times. Other times I'll go on a long shopping trek - often not buying anything at all. Sometimes I'll send my family out fishing or hunting without me. I know I have this need for time off and I work it into my regular schedule with time off work when my son is in school and monthly day trips for continuing education for work. Sometimes I'll come home from work and lock the bathroom door and take a hot bath while I calm down. Journaling helps me a lot. Writing out how I'm feeling relieves that urgent need to escape. These things help prevent it from building up and becoming overwhelming. They keep me from doing things I might regret later.
Verbalizing "I want a divorce" in those times is unacceptable. Find a way that you can get your time off, get away, soothe yourself without hurting your family. ((((hugs)))