What if you have tried medications and hospitization and none of it has worked?

I've been through so much I don't even know where to start.  I'm at the point where most of my family members won't speak to me anymore.  They think I'm a liar, that I manipulate their feelings.  I don't understand why I have been to so many therapists and on so many different medications and nothing works.  I'm now unemployed after being fired from my family business because my brother couldn't handle me being there.  He actually told me I was a literal powder keg to him.  One bad conversation with my mother and he'd lose his job.  So he set out to destroy every tiny little bit of confidence I had left along with the abusive boyfriend I was with at the time and now I feel completely destroyed.  I've been in the hospital 3 times.  I've been on up to 13 medications at the same time.  It actually put me into psychosis. The medications don't work.  They make me worse.  Or so my family says.  I don't have a job.  I don't have insurance.  I don't know where to turn.  I'm afraid.  I don't want to kill myself but I don't see any other choice.  Who would want to live in a world where they don't feel  like anyone wants them there?  Someone please help me!

If they tell you what you are doing isn't working but refuse to help you find an alternative solution then they are not helping you. If your family is not supporting you then maybe you should avoid them for awhile. What you need to do is keep fighting. Keep looking. Somewhere is a combination of medication, a doctor, and a type of therapy that will work for you. I'd suggest going to your nearest County Mental Health department and asking if they know of any local groups specializing in Dialectic Behavioral Therapy, DBT. I think it would work well for you. Depending on where you live you can even get assistants for free. I go to group therapy, have a private therapist, get medication and see a psychiatrist all for nothing. It was not easy and I had to look for what I needed but in the end it helped a lot.