Hello..

I honestly don't know whats wrong with me.. i have never done anything like this before. I think its some sort of bipolar and depression. It just makes me feel fine one day and not the next. most of the time I feel bad for everyone and I cry because I'm scared to lose anyone, I cry because of how mean I am to my sister sarah and how mean we both are to each other and I cry that my other sister sophia gets used and made fun of I feel like both their lives are so hard and I don't want them to hate their life.

And I'm so sad that I notice everything wrong with everyting and I think about every possibility and I notice everything wrong with me and my life and I just think of every bad outcome and I cry . I notice all the crumbs on my floor and dust and I cry. I don't even know why I feel so useless I just feel to bad about everything even though I'm mean to some people.

It has to be bipolar because I am so depressed some days and other days I'm fine . I don't even know what is wrong with me . Like for no reason I'm so sad and I feel so useless and that I am so depressed for no reason sometimes like I don't know why I feel like just doing what I do is fine some does and other days I just wanna die but then I had to help my sisters not hate their lives and there's nothing I can do to feel better ive been this way ever since the beginning of last year

i dont know why i notice everything wrong with everything and just am so sad and depressed, and some days im fine.

i have no where to go and its been to long and i just need help

I was sad to hear about what you're going through, friend. You sound like a kind, caring person and I'm sorry that you're sad. First of all, it's really great that you're reaching out and please know that you're not alone. A lot of us have been where you are now. You didn't mention your age, but I'm guessing you're a teen and I'm wondering if there's a trusted adult you can talk to about you're feeling? Hang in there, we're rooting for you. Keep us posted!