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Posted 12/26/2013 1:23 PM (GMT 0)
I have had this problem for a about a month or more and I am not sure what is going on. I recently had my Geodon increased in the morning from 20mg to 40 mg and take 40 at noon and 120 at bedtime. I also have anxiety. I have been crying a lot , especially when I am feeling lonely. This happens quite frequently. When my husband works day shift I can do okay, but if he does a pm shift that goes into the night and comes home and sleeps until the next pm shift/ night shift then I get so emotional again. I get such and empty feeling inside. I also take Topamax 50 mg every am and 200 mg at bedtime to stabilize my moods, but they don't seem to be. The increase in Geodon in the morning just happened last week.
Posted 12/26/2013 2:56 PM (GMT 0)
MM,

Hello ! Your medical history is quite complicated and I am sorry to read of your anxiety causing you to feel lonely.  I know this feeling well and what works best for me is to keep busy ......... My children are adults and dang, even my grandchildren are adults so I am home alone most of the time as my hubby is a very avid outdoors man.

I have a wonderful dog and often I will just hug him as I let the tears flow.  I may feel all alone but with my dog I am truly not alone.

I also come to HW and help others which makes me feel good.

You mentioned a change in your Geodon which may be messing with your anxiety or perhaps another medication your on.

I would kindly suggest you give your clinic a call and let your Drs. nurse know how you are feeling.

For today plan to keep busy when your husband is at work. 

Keep on talking with us.

Kindly,

Kitt

 

Posted 12/26/2013 8:28 PM (GMT 0)
Hey Milly,
Welcome.
Most of us here can understand the feelings you describe. We can feel like the only ones and at such times I find it helpful to 'tap into 'the universal loneliness' knowing I'm part of an unfortunately large club!
For me I find loneliness can increase when I'm physically unwell, distressed or depressed. ie. At times I am most vulnerable. For me it is a reminder to dust off my own coping strategies and start doing things that bring me joy even if I'm alone. What hobbies might fill you up and give you joy. Don't beat yourself up if you don't feel joy. That's just part of the illness. But we gotta keep treating ourselves kindly and doing what we can to help offset the illness the best we can. I hope you discover ways to fill in your days. Like Kitt's dog my pet (cat) doesn't mind being such a loved up animal. Four legged friends are really healing for some people. Hugs, Jade xo

Post Edited (Living Well) : 12/26/2013 1:31:43 PM (GMT-7)

Posted 12/27/2013 1:23 AM (GMT 0)
Hi milan,

I too know those feelings you're experiencing. I try to do things to distract myself from feeling this way.

If the meds are not working, I think you should talk to your doctor about it. Maybe they can change adjust the dosage or make a change.

I hope you'll feel better.

UA
Posted 12/27/2013 10:54 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Milly,
I know just what you are talking about. Sometimes I call this feeling one of my "unfixables". I cannot explain the feeling, I know it is real and I choose to accept it. I know that doesn't give much help, but for me, just knowing and accepting seems like a huge hurdle has been overcome. I found this article that gives me hope http://bit.ly/1eglz4T. I also like to journal my feelings. When I go back and read what my past feelings were, I am often encouraged how I have overcome. I can see the road I have taken.

I agree with being kind to yourself and finding something that brings you joy! Hugs to you sweetie!!!

Edit:  Your link is not working and leads to an error message.  Sorry.

Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 12/28/2013 11:45:11 AM (GMT-7)

Posted 1/3/2014 7:10 AM (GMT 0)
Hello Milly,
Your situation seems quite normal and sweet to me.less the painful part. I am not surprised to learn of the descriptions and acknowledgement of what loneliness means to u. It is a universal feeling. It's how you learn to cope and relate to that time of loneliness.Associate positive ways to filling the void with more emphasis on a way to escape that issue of discomfort. You know it's coming you feel compelled to the feelings u described, I get it. Perhaps a bit of cognitive therapy can teach coping skills you can adjust to thru those stressful times.
Loneliness & panic are two different things, for me.
I am the same way after 33 years with my husband I panic if I go anywhere on my own. I feel lonely when he is out occasionally.

I am somewhat handicapped physically. I realize how totally I have become dependent on him. I used to be so independent. When he is not near, I feel like I fell down a rabbit hole. We have 3 horses, 5 dogs and I cat.
I love my animals they help me move about and are always there for me.

To be with my sweet fury angels when he is out, it's not the same for me when my husband is out. I not only feel lonely I feel helpless, which can lead to panic. Probably because I have a difficult time getting around.

So I know this will happen when he is gone and I busy myself , read a good book, movie, and BE SURE HE TAKES HIS PHONE. This way I still have contact with him, as he knows I suffer from panic and anxiety and why. It's that phone connection that helps me cope with the loneliness.
I take meds but it never fills that void that special life long connection we have as we have aged thru life's ups & downs. He's the kind of guy that would swim thru shark infested waters to bring me a glass of lemonade.
Knowing that I have a secure phone contact with him changes the whole set of coping skills for me, while distraction is a must as it's a way to find peace with myself.
CHOTTI
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