Posted 1/26/2014 10:08 AM (GMT 0)
On Friday my GP removed all my dx's besides PTSD and said "we have no idea what is wrong with you". They refuse to treat because they refuse to diagnose and I am feel desperate about my health.
Each day my focus is strength based. What was the biggest blow was that my GP would not sign off on me having legal capacity on Friday. I have not done anything wrong or acted irrationally. She said she doesn't know what is wrong with me. They take away my diagnoses, they refuse to treat me.
I feel forsaken in my suffering. It is a huge blow to work so hard on capacity and then have my legal standing as someone at the age of majority not afforded to me. I think I will ring Adult Guardian to try and get some representation, given I have no next of kin to advocate for me.
Essentially I know my own heart and mind. Even though I may get confused and forget things, big decisions like my Will completely reflect my wishes but I am being denied to make my own Will, and that really hurts.
I feel overwhelmed by all the challenges I face. Daily life is hard enough, but as I get sicker additional hurdles that are put in my way and these additional challenges are not being offset with adequate symptom management, referral or investigations.
I have been put in the medical disposal bin and each time I get enough health to be proactive, I keep getting pushed back in by people a lot stronger and healthier than me. I'm trying to get on my feet but the medical system present my biggest obstacles. THAT is irrational and oxymoronic. The medical system seems more dysfunctional than what I am atm.
I don't even feel like going to GP visits anymore... I don't get referral to specialists... she's just given up on me.