bipolar need help

Hi . Im bipolar . Just stumbled on here trying to help my marriage. My husband has been through a lot. I am thinking its best to end it to save him from me.. what do yall think. Im trying to take my meds but they make me slow at wk. Im trying to keep this job. Im trying but he says he cant handle me anymore... im so sad then I dont care but mostly im sad... what do I do. I left w only socks and clothes I was wearing n suddenly we r separated. He started talking w a normal woman. She has a big smile. Im upset. But I feel he deserves a chance to b in a normal relationship. We been together 14 yrs. Am I manic. Is that y I left ... I am goin to dr tomorrow. He has a chance at no hospitals no runaway wife. Does anyine hv a runaway wife. Im confused ...

Thank u for sharing. Its just I am a rollercoaster n I feel I am dragging my husband along. He is just tired I think. I dont blame him. But I just dont know some days I get so sad n want him back other days I dont care n feel great. I hope I made the right decision cause d kids r in d middle n need stability.

Hi. I am so sorry for what you are going through. The moderator who posted recommended that you get help from a psychiatrist and I agree wholeheartedly. What I would add is to allow your husband to come to those visits with you (check that your psychiatrist will allow this, most will.) My psychiatrist (Pdoc) was happy to allow my hubby in at no extra charge. After I have my talk with him each visit, he gives my hubby time to ask questions, make comments, etc. Sometimes my hubby shares observations about me that I miss or forget to tell my Pdoc. I don't always like it, but it is important that my Pdoc knows everything in order to help me with good advice, med adjustments, etc. It has been a wonderful help to my husband to be there -- Over the past 5+ years, my Pdoc has given him a wonderful education about bipolar and the meds. He's eased both of our fears. Our marriage was quite stressed before and now it is quite solid. We have our moments that still stress us sometimes, but we are now solid. I wish you well -- I hope the two of you can heal. And I hope this suggestion can help you and anyone else who reads it.

I'm a runaway wife and now runaway girlfriend, (broken up with boyfriend 5 times only to get back together days later.) I too have been married three times unsuccessfully. I've always picked bipolarish men and I too have bipolar so my whole life has been a roller coaster. I still feel young and look young but I'm not that young. I am impulsive which is a huge component of being bipolar and make major life changeling decisions in seconds. I am aware of this but continue to do it. Oh well...we're all just doing the best we can. You're not alone.