Good news is always a good thing. I really need to study up on the chemical vs situational because most of the time I am thinking do I need more or different meds to not feel. I feel like I'm an observer not a participant in life. I've been told that with proper meds this will just flutter away and unicorns will dance on my lawn. Then on the chronic pain side I'm told if my situation changes then I will feel even better. And the most depressing thing about
that is situations rarely change that much for the better. Even if you fake your own death and run away to a foreign country start a new life ... Your still there inside your own head. I feel like I am chasing down something that looked impossible. But maybe it isn't .... And that's a reason to have hope.
