mother ruining my life

Last weekend I went into detail about some of the problems I was having with my boyfriend. I was breaking up with him. Then I changed my mind because I really do love him. My Mother says he's a loser because he doesn't have much money. He's on disability for bp and extreme back problems. So my Dad is supporting me right now. They have been divorced for 20years and Are not close. My Mom gets on the phone with him and gossips about everything I told her negative about my boyfriend. I help him out financially sometimes. My Dad calls me and he's irate. My Mom tripped to control my life and my Dad s a rage alcoholic. I'm afraid my Dads going to cut me off. My Mother knows this could happen and she opened her fat trap anyway because she's decided I should no see my boyfriend. My parents Are all about money. I called my Mom back and went off on her. I'm never telling her anything intimate again.She's always trying to fix me. She betrayed me. I hate both my parents right now. I'm 45 years old for gosh sakes! I feel trapped like I can't live my life and make my own mistakes like everyone does because my Dad supports me and my Mom s love ifs conditional. Help

I have to watch what I tell my parents as well. Like for instance, my daughter had to be hospitalized for the 2nd time. We didn't tell anyone this time because they kept treating her with baby gloves. They didn't carry on normal conversations with her and it was always frustrating. It was kinda of difficult sometimes because I had to make sure I didn't bring it up in conversations. I certainly have caught myself and I've saved myself. It's not that we are keeping stuff from them it's just that they are very judgmental and are way to opinionated on way to many things. I believe they both have mental things going on with them but it's hard to determine what. I just try to live my life day by day and make the most of it. Try not to let anyone bring you down. You need to do what makes you happy.

Lis1208

Thanks everybody...your support makes me feel so unalone. I was feeling alone and unheard and confused. I realize my Mom is 83 years old and as much as I love her I have to say that her opinions and thoughts and ways of doing things are rather odd to me sometimes. She asked me tonight while we were making a chicken pot pie together if I liked to cook. How could she not know the answer to that? Then she said if I really liked this man i could live with his mother and live on his disability check alone and she's not even the one supporting me, my Dad is. She's so weird. Sorry...I'm here for Mothers Day but I will be home tomorrow. I can take about one night. Thanks for writing back...it means so much