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Posted 4/17/2006 12:01 AM (GMT 0)

Today i have cried on a average 3 times, mainly my children are stressing me out. I love them very much. I am trying to stay calm relaxed and having a difficult time with it. Although i did feel better afterwards an emotional release if u wanna call it that. I want to be strong. I have a wonderful husband and for the most part we get along really well. What is wrong with me if i go to the doc and tell him these things he's going to prescribe more meds and tell me i'm only taking them to deal with stress and book another appointment. I think that i am going to go to a new doc that would be more helpful and less hesitant to fond out what is going on. I feel like an emotional wreck and i shouldn;t be like this i have on 10mg on cipralex a days for months now some days good and somedays not so good. I know that everyday can;t be perfect. Some days hit me harder not sure why? There is no particular triggers that i have yet to be able to idenify other than my children almost wanting to pulll my hair out. Not literally. anyway just venting a little thanks to anyone who reponds Twiggy2

Posted 4/17/2006 12:08 AM (GMT 0)
Sorry you're having such a rough day Twiggy2. I have 6 kids, 4 still at home and a grandson who lives with me as well. Stress is no little thing. Kids fighting or just playing loud can just be too much sometimes. Thankfully mine have school tomorrow so it will just be me and my 2 year old daughter home.
Hope tomorrow is a better day for you as well.
Take Care
Ellie
Posted 4/17/2006 12:56 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you ellie for your response how do you manage. I have a rough time with two children sometimes, lol. Most days are pleaseant and other hell. Do have some tips that may help a little i would appreciate it.Twiggy2
Posted 4/19/2006 1:41 PM (GMT 0)
I have a question, i have switched changed taking my meds from in the morning and now taking then at night, the last two mornings i have woken up by vision has been blurry thought that i was going to pass out this morning everything around me felt like it was going dark, very weird. and i still have back headaches, i am going to call around to different psychologist today and see if they will accept me as a new patient and if not i am going to call my current doc and explain whats happening hopefully he will finally listen and do something. Anyway just wanted to know if anyone has experinces like this can it be morning anxiety or may it possibly the depression trying to haunt me again. Thanks Twiggy2.
Posted 4/20/2006 5:40 PM (GMT 0)
I went to the emerg this morning about the vision problem and the headaches, again i was sent with a prescrition for ibirophin but cannot really afford to get it filled so i have naprosyn instead which is like the same, they send it is tension muscle contraction type headahces and is nothing to be concerned with and to follow up with my family doc asap. SO we will see if this helps any the blurred vision mostly is caused because i need prescription type glasses my left eye is the worst again cannot afford to get scripted glasses so that to can be causing my headaches because i strain to see things. Thank for listening take care Twiggy2 And i get song stuck in my head sounds crazy but in annoys the heck our of me, i read that it is normal in most people escpecially women but i don;t care for it has anyone experince the same thing if so i need reassurance that i'm not nuts, my hubby says that its ok and i'm not abnormal so i guess i just have to try to deal with the best i can.

Post Edited (Twiggy2) : 4/20/2006 11:49:10 AM (GMT-6)

Posted 4/21/2006 2:55 AM (GMT 0)
I finally had to break down and have my vision tested and get glasses. I couldn't really afford it either but the headaches were so bad I just couldn't take it anymore. Hope you can find a way to do it. I know how it feels to live on a tight budget.
Take care
Ellie

Oh, and I do the song thing too. Usually something really annoying from Dora the Explorer or Wonderpets, lol.
Posted 4/21/2006 2:21 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks, what do you do to get the songs out do you sing them out. I don;t feel so foolish about it anymore, i guees i just needed to hear from someonelse other then my hubby that people actually get this. i was afraid that if i tild my pysch that he would send me back to the pysch ward. Maybe if i tell him now that he will be able to help me. I don;t know if there is a cure or med that treat this but if so? I would be first in line to get help, lol. Anyway take care and talk to ya later Twiggy2. As soon as our money situation gets better i am making an i appointment.
Posted 5/9/2006 2:09 PM (GMT 0)
Morning, i think that i might have some bipolar symtoms, i looked up cipralex on the net and one of the side effects could be hypomania, what ever that means i am going to read up on that one, anyway i have racing thoughts usually start first thing in the morning as a awake until i get out of bed and start doing things and then usually it gets better, i have to wait until the 23rd to see my pysch and i want to be of this med if it causing problems i am going to rewuest that he try putting me in Zoloft or Wellbutrin, I currently received drug coverage through social assistance but they do no cover Cipralex which is good in a way because i want to stop taking it anyway, Zoloft however is covered so keeping that in mind it mind be a better change. Take care Twiggy
Posted 5/10/2006 1:17 AM (GMT 0)
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way and I can completely relate. Sometimes I feel like such a bad mother because I just can't deal with the stress of being a mom sometimes. Most the time I'm a fairly good mother but then others I get so irritated and really start yelling (screaming really) and then I will bawl my eyes out because I feel so guilty and messed up. All I can say is, you have to talk to your dr. Maybe your meds aren't right or they need to be adjusted. Also when you are feeling overwhelmed leave the room. Go outside or into your room and just take 10 deep breaths and think to yourself...relax.... This sometimes helps for me. Take care.

Crissi
Posted 5/10/2006 1:25 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks Crissi, i hear you on that, i have put in a lot of practice when things get kinda to much for me i walk away take a few breaths, if all else fails i start balling only for a few minutes then i feel a little better the kids look at me and ask why i am crying but i think they understand when they pushed it to much and they leave me alone until i am not crying anymore. Anyway take care if you don;t mind me asking what meds if any have been or are on and what success did you have with them, Thanks Twiggy2.
Posted 5/10/2006 6:21 PM (GMT 0)

Hi there.  I've put these things into practice lot's and sometimes it just doesn't matter, I blow.  That's the worst part of this disorder.....letting it affect my parenting and therefore my children.  I was in really bad shape a little while ago (mixed state) and was so worried for my kids especially cause March break was coming.  I posted on here and got tons of support.  One thing I find that helps is when I blow my top and start yelling once I cool off I apologize to my kids.  Mine are only 5 and 7.  They appreciate my apologies and it lets them know I'm not perfect.  I've also tried to be open with them and explain that something is wrong with mommy and I'm trying to get help so when I scream like that maybe they could cool it with their fighting because mommy is having one of her bad days.  So far it hasn't completely worked but it's let them know that it isn't their fault I have outbursts.

I just started lamotrigine (lamictal).  I'm only on 25 mg a day so far but I go up later this week.  I think it has already made a bit of a difference and I'm praying it's not just a placebo effect (felt similiar on buspar but it quit after a few weeks).  I just got diagnosed last month although I've had this since I was 14 but  it has really changed and escalated in the past few years.  I don't get normal mania but feel like I'm going out of my mind with agitation, irritation, anxiety, etc. I finally wrote a letter to my dr.  outlining how I feel and my past history plus my family history.  She figured it out and sent me to pdoc.  It sounds weird but I was soooo happy to be diagnosed because I finally know there is a reason the way I am and I'm not just a bad person sometimes, and also that I am getting proper meds (I've tried SSRI's and the results weren't good).  So, I wish you luck.  Try not to be too hard on yourself.  Take care.

Crissi

Posted 5/11/2006 1:36 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks Crissi i to get that way sometime with my children and i always apoligise when i get upset and yell a little, I to would like to have proper dx so i can be put on better meds, cipralex works ok but sometimes i think that i could use a better mood stabilizer or something as cipralex is an anti depressants and is suppose to work on anxiety as well but i still experience some mild anxiety and possibly depression so i think that zoloft or wellbutrin might be a better choice or even effexor but good news i got a phone call from someone from our local hospital wanting to see if i wanted to meet him i am not sure if he is a counsellor or a pychciatrist but i will call him tommorow and find out hopefully i can meet with him soon and we can possibly talk and possibly prescribe a new med that will work better. Take care Twiggy2 or stick with cipralex and try a stonger anti anxiety meds well hope u are doing well on your new med let me know how it goes my understanding that ssri help with depression but not mania that is why they give people other meds to control the mania correct, don't know a hole lot about the disorder so don;t mind me i am just curious.
Posted 5/11/2006 6:01 PM (GMT 0)
Hello it's twiggy, i have found out that i have reffered to a pyschotheropist i have an appointment on may 29th has anyone been to one of these people and did u find it helped anyway talk to ya later Twiggy.
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