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I was recently diagnosed with bp. I just discovered that my great grandmother hand it and suicided in an asylum, my grandfather has it, and i just admitted my mom to a psych. unit via er which she was severely depressed, suicidal, paranoid, and delusional. I've been realizing some things about my mood swings that I've been dealing with since I was a teenager (I'm 22 now) and I have a couple questions (I never seem to remember my questions during therapy). My depressions can last months and sometimes there are horrible mixed states during those times. But I mostly have hypomanias that happen at night and cause some insomnia and they seem to be triggered by something. I know that events or whatnot can cause depressive symptoms, but can that happen with mania? For example I work in a restaurant, and when it is really busy I'll begin to be very fun and bubbly, have racing thoughts, run around really fast, talk quickly, act inappropriate with coworkers, and after a little while get really irritable and feel tension in all my muscles. Also does anyone else have periods where they are kinda manic at night but tired all day for days or weeks?  Is this "rapid" cycling?

Thanks

god, my heart goes out to you.  you have been through a lot and it seems ike there is a lot more out there for you.

i seond what ellie has posted.  a dr cannot help you unless the dr knows what's going on.  i sometimes keep a list of questions for my dr of of unusual events that have happened.  i don't see the pdoc very often (i disagree, but he thinks i'm stable), so the list helps.  i write the question or the event down almost immediately so that i don't forget it (i just found out that memoy loss is sometimes a side-effect of bp meds).  the list helps.  you might want to try it.

i will keep you and your family in my thoughts.  good luck and god bless.

warren

mania is a strange thing, but being at work sometimes i was manic. Also sometimes i was depressed and talked the whole time about how i wanted to go home and how i hated being there, but i have extremely mixed mania.

Also i stayed awake for about two weeks, meaning about an hour or less of sleep per night if at all. But it made me grouchy during the day, very tired even though i couldnt sleep during school (sometimes i did anyway) and very pessimistic.

My advice is try to get some sleep and you didnt mention if you were on meds, but many meds when taken at night can help with the sleeplessnes. I know it feels like you dont need the sleep but eventually our bodies are built to crash without it.

I hope i was of any help