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Posted 9/30/2007 1:54 PM (GMT 0)
How's everybody doing this weekend? How are you feeling? Symptoms? Doing well? (Some of you quiet types, I'm asking about you too!)

I've been okay so far. No vertigo since Tuesday. Staying on top of my meds. Very tired though. I've had to work this weekend, and it's been a long week. I've been very crabby and impatient. Mostly lashing out at my husband (poor guy). We have long talks and he tries to be understanding. Today's better. My husband, daughter and I are planning a day trip into Chicago later, so I'm looking forward to that. I hope this week's quieter and we're going to look into some daycare to try and take some of the pressure off of us.
Posted 9/30/2007 9:24 PM (GMT 0)
Serafene,

I am glad that you are feeling better, it's long overdue. haha

Sorry, me on the other hand, I feel like I am losing my mind...

I don't know why this is happening to me right now, of all times. I think I am at a start of an episode, and I don't understand it. The only think that is different is that I switched meds (from Geodon to Abilify). I feel really jittery/can barely sit still, my mind feels scattered, I want to scream. I am having rage issues and everything is p****** me off , and negative compulssive thoughts. Been spending money like there is not tomorrow, but at least I realised I don't need it all and will return most of it, I guess it was an impulssive thing we all go through sometimes. I can't even concentrate enough to do my school work, and I don't even care. I feel a little anxious, but more about my situation than what isn't getting done. I have an appointment with my pdoc on tuesday, but right not it seems so far away. I just don't want to go the hospital, I have too much going on right now. Oh, this started at the beginning of the week, but I ignored it because I wanted to to give the Abilify the chance to work. skull
Posted 10/1/2007 2:09 AM (GMT 0)
I'm so sorry to hear that. I know you were hopeful about the Abilify. (Which sounds like an Insurance Company to me.) That angry, anxious feeling is awful. It feels like there's so little you can do to calm it down. When I can, exercise helps me burn some of the energy off. Can you work some in? (Ironic, ME telling YOU this, because even though I'd like to do more exercise, I rarely do. I just don't make the time. But I do believe it would really help if I did.)

Tuesday isn't forever away, it's just two days. You'll be okay. Also, you could call your pdoc in the morning and tell the receptionist to give you a call if they have a cancellation -- that you're really anxious to see the doc. If you get behind in your school work, the most important thing is to talk to your professors. Just let them know you're having a health issue and you'll catch up. I bet most will be understanding.

Feel better, and let us know how you're doing.
Posted 10/1/2007 2:28 AM (GMT 0)

im sorry youre not feeling well olivia, i hope you find some relief soon.

as for me, im doing alright i guess. my geodon was just upped becasue i was cycling again. i also have been haveing wild and horrible dreams where i wake up with a full blown anxiety attack. also my crohn's disease is flaring up and it has me worried and depressed.

but it seriously could be worse. i just started working, im substitute teaching. its the first job i have been able to have in 2 years so its scary and hard. but so far its going pretty well. im proud of myself so much that i am able to do it but it is mentally and physically exhausting. i find that my symptoms are a little worse when i am working or have worked that day but i think itll be something i get used to. it is getting eaiser so thats good.

thats it for me,

bunnyp

Posted 10/1/2007 4:16 AM (GMT 0)
Sarefena and BP,

Thanks for your support, I guess I am freaking out a little because it feels like the begining of a manic episode. It always starts out with anxiety/rage for me and goes down hill from there. To be honest with you I do not feel like I am on any meds right now, even though that is not true. I have also been having the pressured speech and the racing thoughts, and I think some even auditory stuff going on. Things have not been good for the last week or so, just trying to hang in there. I guess I am a little scared, because I had a mixed-state right in April, and never had 2 episodes in the same year. Thank you sooo much for listening to my complaints. You guys are the best!
Posted 10/1/2007 1:29 PM (GMT 0)
Anytime cupcake, that's what we're all here for, right? That feeling is soooo scary. The coming storm right? I think we can all sympathize.

Are you getting enough sleep? (Sorry, I can't help it -- the maternal tone comes free with the baby.)
Posted 10/1/2007 2:32 PM (GMT 0)
Hi olivia
How are you feeling today? I think Serafena had a great suggestion to call your pdoc today and tell them it is an emergency so they can get you in sooner.

Stay Strong!
Posted 10/1/2007 4:11 PM (GMT 0)
Olivia, Abilify did that to me in the beginning as well, it turned out to be a side effect and did pass with time. It came back again when the pdoc doubled the dose so I'm dealing with much the same thing, I just keep telling myself it will pass. I have a pdoc appt on Tues as well, I've dealt with this before, I sure hope he doesn't change my meds.
Hang in there, I'll bet this is all temporary.
Posted 10/1/2007 6:22 PM (GMT 0)
Hi all, don't know if this is the same thing, but when I was trying to get pregnant the 2nd time, I was given a fertility medication and all I remember was the sensation of wanting to walk around ripping peoples faces off! Needless to say I was not getting along with this drug. I could see myself feeling this way and had to manually control myself at every turn. No one else knew I was having this problem because I was responsibly controling it, but the feeling inside was awful. I was grateful when they switched me to another version of the drug and that feeling went away.

As to how I am doing right now...so-so. I am frustrated that some bullying is starting for my oldest son again at school. I want SO badly to kick some of these kids up side the head and say wake up you jerk, my son is worth 10 of you! Grow up and learn how to treat your fellow man with respect. You don't have to be best friends...but what ever happened to if you don't have something nice to say...say nothing at all???? The therapist has identified our son as an abused kid, but the abuse is not in the home, it is from his peers...and he is an AMAZING kid. Adults LOVE my kid. Kids one on one, really like him too, but when in a "group" at school, feel the only way to socially climb the ladder is to ridicule and tear down someone else, and for some reason they have chosen my son because he refuses to join in the pathetic WRONG behavior of that. He just rolls his eyes and walks away. God, this makes me SO angry that he should have to deal with this pain for THEIR ignorance and if I would say anything, it makes it worse! I am NOT a violent person, but my God, I want him to be able to pop them in the nose!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Also, I am not physically feeling all that great. My fibromyalgia is rearing its head and I am really fatigued. But I can't give into it or my leg will weaken and I will loose ground on my healing and my walking will be effected, so regardless of how I feel, I must go work out and do my rehab. Therefore, I am going to finish some of my work and after I will go to the gym and do my excersizes and then pick up my kids from school. And I will count my blessings for the day! Thanks for listening...LFW
Posted 10/1/2007 7:41 PM (GMT 0)
LFW,

Wow you are going through a lot of stuff there and I am so sorry. Hormones deffinetly affect your moods, probably not in a good way. Best wishes on your baby planning.

Kids can be vicious these days, I cannot imagine being that young again. It sucks that they are picking on your son, like they have nothing better to do. Unfortunetly bullies are everywhere, or just plain mean people. I am sorry that your son is facing such abuse, has he tried talking with the councelor or the principal about his problem. I am not sure if that is the best idea, but things may also get better.

I hope you physically feel better soon. You are and in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there.
Posted 10/1/2007 7:43 PM (GMT 0)
Oh, I almost frgot, I was able to move my pdoc appt to today, I'll let you know what happens. Thanks for all your help and support.
Posted 10/1/2007 9:34 PM (GMT 0)

I just thought I would mention that when I fail to take my premarin for menopause symptoms, I become very anxious and irritable to the point that I could kill the wall if it looks at me wrong.  I have to be really careful about not going too long without them in my system.  I had to have a complete hysteretomy at 45 yrs old and so I don't have any or very little estrogen in my body.  Once I take one, I feel calm and back to normal within about 15 minutes.  So those hormones sure make a difference in my emotional well being. 

I sure hope you guys feel better real soon......

Dasa

Posted 10/1/2007 9:45 PM (GMT 0)
LFW:

I'm sorry to hear about your son's troubles. It is awful to be bullied but it must be just as hard to watch your baby suffer through it. Luckily he has a very sturdy support system already in place to help him through it: Loving, attentive parents, doctors, and therapy.

Hope the fibro relents soon. Take care of your leg.
Posted 10/1/2007 11:19 PM (GMT 0)

Wow...it seems a lot of us are having a very difficult week. I think Serafena said it best once:

~~Group Hug~~

Posted 10/2/2007 12:29 AM (GMT 0)
LFW im sorry you are having so much stress right now and i really do feel for your son. keep your head up and take care of yourself.

olivia, id really like to hear what your pdoc has to say and i hope that they can clear things up for you.

sending love both your ways

bunny

Posted 10/2/2007 3:29 AM (GMT 0)
BP,

The pdoc appt went well, he said he noticed that my mood was def. elavated. He told me to increase my Abilify to 20mg and see where it goes from there. I am feeling a little better today, but I have not been sleeping that much and I think between that and stress, things have been a little rough. But I am better and thanks for asking.
Posted 10/3/2007 9:25 PM (GMT 0)

I also send all of you a big HUG !  I have been so busy with school this week, but I want you guys to know I am thinking of all of you.  You all help me so much, I want to always do the same for you.

Olivia, I'm sorry that things are so unbalanced for you now.  You said your appt went well though, so that's good.  It's been a few days too, so I hope you are only feeling better.

LFW, I am thinking of you as well.  I know your son will get through all of this because you are so strong.  And we are all here for you.

Anyway, take special care of yourselves.

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