Need a diagnosis please

Thank you Jennifer. I second that entirely. Really.

I can't believe your teacher would read your report card out loud. That's despicable. What could she have been thinking? In front of other students? And besides, she has no right to open your report card.

In some ways, Ciddy, I wish you had gone to the hospital. That sounds harsh, but let me explain. First of all, in the hospital, they are (in my experience anyway) very, very nice to you. They want you to get better, not worse. It's a little like a "break" from daily life that way. Certainly no vacation, you spend all your time in therapy or being bored stiff, but it's a break. Second, it would get you treated for that "untreated manic depression." And you really need to get that treated. Suicide attempts get you placed in the hospital for a reason. I'm very worried about you, even if none of these other people are. Third, it would get you away from all these nutty adults for a few days. Think your own thoughts, rest. You only have to see them during visiting hours.

Please take Jennifer's advice, or call one of the hotlines above. And keep us updated. It's always good to hear from you.

serafena

Okay,

After about 2 weeks after posting it's been alot better; My grades are mostly Bs at the moment, which is good. I've basically been trying to stay out of everyones way, and it's been alot better...UNTIL this morning. I walk into school and see my best friend walking out of homeroom with her mother. Apparently, she was switching homerooms because of a drop in her grades. I was okay with it, because I want what's best for her. But then I walk into homeroom. My reading teacher immedietly approaches me and says "Sister wants you." In case you didn't know, Sister is our principal (who, of course, is a nun) So I went to the principals office; Now I switching homerooms, to a teacher who I'm not very comfortable with. They wanted me seperated from my best friend so I could concentrate better. Then we got into what everyone thinks was my "suicide attempt," but she was not very compassionate; acually, more demanding.

So, I went back to homeroom and asked if I could speak with my Reading teacher. We went out into the hallway and I asked her if she knew why I was switching rooms, and she claimed she had no idea (she HAD to have had an idea, even the teacher who's homeroom I was transferring to knew about it) She then got into how I "lied to her"

I have a friend in my area; We never uset to get along so we would write stupid little comments to eachother over email. We're friends now and now we make a whole joke of the situation saying things like, "MW Must Die!!" Now, my best friend is also very good friends with her, so I wrote our little inside joke about the MW thing. MW happens to be my reading teachers innitials, and just happened to find it. Everyone made a huge deal about it and the woman told everyone who has any compassion for me. Claiming she's "worried about me." (which I highly doubt) Well, we had a parent-teacher confirance on Thursday. My parents didn't go, but my best friend(who's name is Kelsie)'s parents did go. My reading teacher mentioned this to them (we both said she lived in Cleveland so we wouldn't get in trouble) and she told them we lied about it. I lied because her parents aren't very fond of me, or the idea of her and me being friends, so If I told the truth she would've called them and I would be in trouble.

So she starts on that, when she's acually lying to me about "knowing nothing about it." Sister lied to my mother, saying it was my grades that made them switch me, but before the meeting she had no idea what my grades were.

This is just ridiculous; I lost my favorite teacher, my counselors, and now this? What do the expect me to do now?
-Ciddy
Ciddy

Ciddy:

I'm so sorry that yet again the teachers at your school have misunderstood your actions and you feel punished. You really need professionals to help you out and I can only echo Casem -- call a help line. Get some advice.

In the meantime, let me make one request. Please stop "playing" with words of dying. Stop making jokes about people dying: yourself or other people. It WILL be misunderstood when any of these teachers, friends or parents come across any of your references to it. That doesn't mean you shouldn't try and express your pain or sorrow, or to try to reach out for help when you honestly need it. But if you joke about it, it will undoubetedly be accidentally found and WILL be misunderstood. In my opionion, it's not for making light of.