But there is so much information online about bipoar. I know in previous posts people have given you links to some great articles and even some great books. There were links given to great websites before...if you just look back at old posts. I think it sounds like that is where you need to start...just in finding out about what you are dealing with. I understand that you are trying to do what is right...but always remember that being BP does not give a person an excuse to treat people like crap, and not be held responsible. So you need to decide if your H is trying himself to get better...that you both are working toward a great future. It is not ok for him to be mean to you.