Hi there
Thanks for your concern .. im fine .... I was in Johannesburg to see my kids , and of course to bury my little grandchild .... the whole process was extremly traumatic .. but believe me I have now seen the value of taking my meds ....
My daughter as much as I love her nearly drove me beserk .. she is a total slob .. you cant see her bed for the junk she has lying around .. she is food obsessed and everything in her apartment is low fat .... so I managed to loose 14 pounds in a week .. I have a very fast metabolism and its always been hard for me to maintain a healthy weight ....
Fran (my daughter) is a high powered very sucessful career woman .. but her lifestyle is enough to drive anyone nuts ... she gets up .. goes to gym , goes running , goes to work ... gets home , goes to gym , goes running goes to sleep ... where is the fun ??????
My new daughter in law is the most wounded girl I have ever seen in my life .. apart from loosing her baby she was badly molested as a child and doesnt trust anyone.. she seems to "hide" in a corner all the time ... the first time I hugged her she went rigid .. the second time she clung to me ... My son doesnt have a clue on how to deal with her .. and having to cope with loosing his baby and a traumatised girlfriend ... well I dont know how he is doing it .. but he is ... I really like the girl ... and she is slowly starting to open up to me ... with her its going to take time , love and lots of patience....
I saw my older son .. who is now off drugs for nearly a year and looks clean fresh and healthy .... its fantastic ... he looks like a healthy 24 yr old .. madly in love with his girlfriend and looking forward to life .... he and his brother have also become very close and he is very supportive which is what Garth needs .. both boys are a handful tho ... like all kids of that age ....full of mischief ....
It was a diffucult week but a good one ... as I say 2 months ago my daughter and I would have the most terrible fight and then we wouldnt have spoken to each other for a month .. this time I could keep my cool and just deal with it :)
Marvelous being in control and being able to handle difficult situations .. my pdoc is going to be proud of me ..im proud of me :))))
I think its the only time we can really measure how effective our meds are ??? when dealing with severe stress and trauma...???
I couldnt see my little grandbaby ... :( not allowed into that area of the hospital .... I did however see her little bum when my son was tickling her feet :) .. she is doing very well and should be out of the incubator this weekend and then home the following one .... she is gaining weight nicely and for such a tiny baby she is very lively ....
once again .. thanks for your concern ...
***hugs**