Posted 5/19/2008 1:02 PM (GMT 0)
I had a talk with my husband and told him what most people said about him here in a different post. He was not very happy at me but,I thought I had better say something, just in case he started to read some of the things I say. He said he doe's understand what is going, But he was raised different so when I say I can't handle something or when I just want to die. Its hard for him to handle it. But there are so many times I wonder about him. He has been disabled for 16 years, and there are so many times he stays in bed all day, I have to tell him to shower, and little things but, in his eyes hes not depressed. It makes me feel even more confused, But I don't have the strength of mind to fight with him. I wish I could reach into his mind and let him see what its like to be me, and feel what I feel. He use to be in the Air Force and he did some sike test the psychiatrist told him he should be a alcoholic but I was his bottle. He's my best friend and I can't talk to him about this. It makes it so hard on me, I just can never find the words that are right, so I keep it to my self, in turn it drives me crazy. How can I make him understand??? If you can't walk a mile in our shoes. He tries to say he knows, but I'm not sure, if its me or him.
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