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Posted 6/28/2008 6:59 PM (GMT 0)

Hey, My BP husband Is going through a really rough time now.He hasn't been able to work since April. He has applied for disability and is stressed cause the process takes forever and he is convinced he will be denied his benefits. I had back surgery in January and went back to work aweek and a half ago. Our finances are at the bottom. He feels like his back is up against the wall and there's nothing he can do. His stress is causing me stress and I have cried so much last night and today I can't cry anymore.I decided to post on here just to get it off my chest. I was overdosed in the hospital and I triuly wish they would have let me die.Finances for my husband would have been taken care of .At least that is one worry he wouldn't have. Anyway, I just don't know what to do next. I know I am not any help to him while I am feeling this way. I try to keep my feelingss to myself so as not to upset him. He said he wished he had a bipolar friend so he would have something in common with them.Anyone out there in Alabama, the gadsden area I would love to talk to you.

Thanks for letting me vent on here.

bama wife

Posted 6/28/2008 8:08 PM (GMT 0)
Hi bama wife,

I'm sorry things are at such a desperate state. You could, of course, direct your husband to this site, so he could talk to some other bipolar people. There are also bipolar/depression support groups in just about every area. Call your local mental health clinic or talk to your husband's psychiatrist. They will be able to refer you. They are often free or take sliding scale fees.

You are also in need of some further attention. Your stress and anxiety are through the roof. You too should talk to your doctor about your extreme stress and consider looking for a therapist to help you work through some of the stress, guilt and overwhelming feelings you are having. Again, many therapists take sliding scale payments. Look for one who works in a clinic.

Hope this is useful,
serafena
Posted 6/30/2008 8:29 PM (GMT 0)
Hang in there Bama...we hear you, and you are not alone with all the stress. But not having you here is NOT an acceptable option, and while I am sorry to hear about the o/d, I am happy you are HERE!!!!!!!!!!!! I, while my story is different, GET IT, and while I sometimes feel the same way as you and all I want to do is cry from all the stress...I just don't have the darn time to indulge that. So, I have gone back to twice a month seeing a therapisst. It is helping for me. Maybe that would work for you right now too. Perhaps talk to a community mental health center that requires pay on a financial scale, as I know that just knowing the costs about seeing someone can add more stress to an already stressed situation. You might even be able to find someone to take on your case for 6 months pro- bono work? Sometimes therapists need to show those hours also.

Bottom line...while the situation seems dark and hard right now....there is a way out to the light again for both of you. Just breathe, have faith, reach out to us....and VENT away girlfriend....we are here to listen and support you. LFW
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