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Posted 11/16/2008 3:40 PM (GMT 0)
Just wondering how everyone's doing.

What did you do/are you doing this weekend? How are you feeling?



I'll start -- I had my bookgroup Friday night. A bottle of wine, 5 other women and a good book to talk about. We had a great time, so that was fun. But yesterday I was very depressed, spent a good deal of the day crying. (I'm fighting off a new depression, I know it.) We're struggling financially right now -- getting by, but just, and I have to really fight to keep my spending in check. It's SO hard. (I know that seems really whiny and irresponsible, but maybe someone can understand. I'm not a huge spender, but now I'm getting yelled at for how much I go out for coffee, for pete's sake.) Today we're taking down my daughter's crib and making a ceremony of it so she doesn't feel bad about it. We're making a "goodbye" cake for the crib. I hope my mood stays better today.

Let us know how you're feeling too. It's so much better to know we're not alone.

I love you guys! tongue

serafena
Posted 11/16/2008 3:53 PM (GMT 0)
It's 12:22 pm, Sunday, Nov. 16/08.

I'm alive...yay! rolleyes

Posted 11/16/2008 4:48 PM (GMT 0)
Good Morning Serafena!  I've had a great week over all; the best in a long time smilewinkgrin !  This Invega is working great (so far) as a mood stabilizer! I really wish I had been dx'd as bp years ago and put on a mood stabilizer a long time ago; it would have changed my life drastically!  The only two things with me this week is the eating which we talked about before (there's still food left in the house so I guess that's a good thing tongue ) and I've done a little too much shopping on-line nono .  As mentioned the jeans are getting tight; so I needed to have something to see me through; I'm going to make a conscience effort to walk 3 times this week...I'll keep you posted on that.  It's has finally cooled off here and it's pretty outside and it will better than just sitting in front of the TV.   The book club sounds interesting and the wine sounds wonderful; I'd love to have some but I'm afraid to because they (they being the rx paper that comes with your rx) said not to drink with Invega.  Do they tell you that about any of your meds?  I know you're not a doc but as a friend what would your opinion be on an occasional glass?  If this is out of line to ask feel free to delete if necessary.  Or maybe you call E-mail your response.  I certainly don't want to cause any problems on the board now that I've found a comfortable place to be.  Oops I'm rambling...I'll sign off for now.  Hope you have a good week and the crib coming down ceremony goes well.   Bridget
Posted 11/16/2008 8:24 PM (GMT 0)
Serafena,

I got kicked out of my book club because I only showed up for the wine without reading the book!!!

Keep fighting off that depression. I know it's easier said than done. I hope the babe likes her new bed :)

My fiance and I were talking the other day how things are very stable right now and we keep expecting the floor to drop out at any time. I can't help but think "what if this happened" and I lost him, etc. I guess it's a matter of talking to my therapist about what I'm feeling. We're so used to functioning during times of crisis that when things are "normal" we find ourselves not able to enjoy it. Twisted, I know.

Hang in everyone!
Posted 11/16/2008 9:35 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Everyone --

Yankeepeaches -- as a friend, not a doc -- an occasional glass of wine probably won't hurt you. All psych meds are gonna tell you not to drink. All 5 of mine do. But I had two glasses the other night and I was fine. But those are probably the only two glasses I've had in two months. I'm not a big drinker. But I don't think, if you can be responsible about it, that it's going to kill you either. Just remember not to drive afterwards because the drugs can intensify the effects of the alcohol. Whee!

Thank you Diskus for the good wishes. My daughter seems to be fine with the crib transition! Yay! Cake's good too. I think you have the right idea -- take your fears to your therapist, because you're right, you don't want to sabotage the good times with worries. There's no need.

Glad you're here, Lorraine!

hugs,
serafena
Posted 11/16/2008 11:27 PM (GMT 0)

Hi everyone,

Hope everyone is feeling stable.  We're all trying our best :-)

I haven't posted in awhile b/c I was depressed for 6 weeks straight, deep and dark.  Needless to say we adjusted my meds.  Meanwhile we moved last weekend, after a good 3 weeks of getting rid of junk, packing etc.  It was a very stressful time for me, But!  We have a gorgeous new place w/new furniture!!  EEK!  smilewinkgrin I was so excitied about the furniture, I've never had new furniture!  With the adjustment of my meds and the stress of moving lifted, I am feeling better.  I felt the depression creeping in late yesterday into the night, and a bit today...but I'm hoping it leaves me alone for awhile.  That last episode was torture.

Serafena, I hope that you can ward your episode off somehow.  We loves you too! 

Just on the topic of alcohol, I find it makes me depressed after I drink, so I stay away from drinking a lot, minus the few glasses of wine here and there.

I would also like to add I now go for massage (I hurt my shoulder at work--but it's been great for tension) and my new bathroom is a sanctuary so I am having a lot of soothing bubble baths now.  My goal is relaxtion to be a part of my everyday life and I plan to start yoga soon (at home).  I will post when I've accomplished that.

Take special care of yourselves,

M

Posted 11/17/2008 12:01 AM (GMT 0)
Mogli,

Glad you've made it through the dark times. I think you've hit a good point where your entire lifestyle needs to be adjusted to achieve calm whenever you can...whether it's yoga, meditation, or massage once every couple weeks. I imagine it's more difficult to achieve when you have kids, but every little bit counts.
Posted 11/17/2008 1:55 AM (GMT 0)
Serafena,

I just came back from a family get-together to watch football and it was great. Work has been a little rough, with the economy and all. I'm looking for a permanent job and my current contract (I'm an independent consultant right now) is up in the air for the same reason. Moods have been predictable, but the depression has been really tough--which prayer and going to church has been helping with.

I hope that everything is well with the crib ceremony...

I'm glad that everyone seems to be doing better and hanging in there!
Posted 11/17/2008 4:27 AM (GMT 0)
We had hoped to adopt, however life conspired to prevent us from doing it. All in all iit was a good day at the firehouse. Restless but i have to learn to live with that side effect. Keep up the good thoughts.

Bill
Posted 11/17/2008 4:26 PM (GMT 0)
Hi everyone:

Mogli-- so so so good to hear from you. Moving is so stressful. I'm not surprised you were depressed, but it's terrible. I'm sorry you had to go through it. Stress and bipolar just do not mix. I hope it continues to lift now that you are getting settled in. Relaxation everyday sounds fabulous. I should try that.

sdw679 -- I'm sorry to hear work is up in the air, that's stressful too. I hope you're doing something to help calm yourself and counteract that stress. I guess watching football helps, right? Happy thoughts against your depression. I'm glad going to church is helping ward that off a bit.

Bill -- I'm so sorry to hear you didn't get to adopt. That's terrible. How long have you been on the abilify? Some side effects will go away within a week or two, but you don't have to live with them. There's so many drugs out there that if one doesn't "fit" right, there's many others to try. Talk to your doctor. He/She may have something better.

serafena
Posted 11/17/2008 6:10 PM (GMT 0)
cool  Hi guys,

Well I have been busy helping my daughter plan for her wedding. She got married 3 weeks ago. It was beautiful!

I've been having trouble with my Crohns disease that landed me in the ER, but that's pretty much under control right now.

I've also been in the ER due to shortness of breath and chest pain. I had an EKG, bloodwork, chest x-ray and a ct scan of my lungs and everything came back normal. I left with a diagnosis of chest pain-non cardiac. I followed up a few days later with a nuclear stress test that also came back normal. Yeah!!! Right? 

I've always had anxiety and do take medication for it but this incident was the worst I've ever experienced!  I'm still bothered by it and my anxiety seems more like deep panic attacks! I feel like I can't breathe and all air supply is sucked out of me, my heart will pound like a deep drum and skip a beat or two, my head feels like it will explode and I get very light headed.  I feel like I just have to get out of wherever I am. I had an attack while driving and that was terrible!

I use a mail order pharmacy and with all the hoopla of my daughter's wedding I forgot to have my meds renewed in time. I had to go through a few days without any anxiety meds and that was one of the worst experiences of my life!

So now I have all my meds but I'm using the anxiety meds a lot more than usual. It's been 3 whole weeks since my daughter's wedding and I don't know why my anxiety is kicking into this deeper level now. I see my pdoc on Dec. 15th so I'll see how it goes until then. I do see my therapist every 2 weeks so I will be talking about it with her and get her take on things. 

It's been nice to read about a lot of you. I wish everyone a peaceful day and better health!

 

Posted 11/17/2008 9:47 PM (GMT 0)

Hi Serafena,

Haven't been on line in a while.  New med did not work out (Trileptal) and have not been doing so hot.  I keep trying though!  Saturday I could not get out of bed, crying, wondering "is this what my life is reduced to?"  Sunday felt totally different.  Can we say Rapid cycler?  Well, two more weeks until my next PDoc appointment.  Probably will try something different.  I have been through eight different meds and none work or I am unable physically to tolerate.

I hope you feel better!  I have to stay away from alcohol all together because it sets me off, one way or another.  Gosh, I miss a cold beer once in a while.

I have come to realize that even though my family knows I am ill, they still do not take it into consideration and do things that just push every button I have.  Can't figure out if it is me being over sensitive and them being insensitive.  Does anyone else have this problem?  Does every BP have this problem.

Well, hugs and kisses.  I really missed coming to this forum.  When no one hears from me it is because I am hurting to much to type, or talk, or communicate or whatever.

Anywho, later group!

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