Hi

   Well life will feel different, and in my case so much better. I now live a life that no longer features an obsession with my own death and no huge monster load of life resting on my shoulders. Funny i just finished a tour in kuwait back in the Jan-may time frame. SO nice to meet you, hope you are feeling better, and what kind of writing are you doing?

    Bill

  

  Well i can understad a bit, i am a military firefighter and there is a huge stygmia attached here also. We are supposted to super tough and never have any feelings or problems at all. The truth  is that we are human, with all that is involved in that.

    I to write fiction, mostly scifi but fiction none the less. Hopefully you will spend time here and share some of your stories, i for one allways look forward to hearing about new things. Plus i am a big believer that the more you air your problems and sadnesses, the easier they are to bear. Those who never talk bear the greatest burden of us all.

    As for weird little country, my experiences in the military were of a distinctly "military" sort of weird. LOL LOL LOL

Dear Happy Bill,

I would love to e-mail you excerpts. Please send me your e-mail id and I will send you what I have written. You can also send me your excerpts. I have worked in the publishing industry in NYC nd have a pretty decent idea of what sells (I worked for a liberal house and a military history one).

Best,
Sheeba


(Sheeba, I had to take your email addy out. Put it in your profile and people can access it there, but bots can't. Thanks. -- serafena)

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How do I add my e-mail address to my profile? There are no "Edit" options.

Dear Serafena,

Thank you for your help.

Sheeba

Hi Gemini,

I am on Carbamezapine (Tegretol). My psychiatrist put me on Lithium in the middle but I did not respond well to it. I am doing well on Carbamezapine. I rejected 7 psychiatrists in the U.S. and finally settled for an Indian psychiatrist who has worked in the military because he told me he would not put me in a hospital. I think a good psychiatrist is more important than the medication. I have been on Zyprexa, Abilify and Risperidal in the U.S. This psychiatrist lets me call him whenever I need to speak to someone and he writes to me every week.

I think it is dumb for societies to ignore such issues. Each person has something unique to contribute to society. Some of the most talented writers and entrepreneurs have bipolar disorder. It is best to focus on the stories of successful people who have the disorder and ignore people who live in denial or treat patients badly. I have started ignoring the people who told me to kill myself and I can tell that they are really hurt.

Sheeba

   shebsy feel free to check my profile and send me some reading material. I would love to read what you have written. Funny all my doctors are Indian and i have found them extremely helpfull and much more attentive than american doctors. Gofigure    

    It seems you have found a home here, hopefully we can keep this board hopefull and filled with love and help for others.

      Bill

Dear BP Gemini,

Please never make the mistake of experimenting with Ayurveda herbs. I was big into natural healing techniques myself and refused to take allopathic (conventional Western) medication even when I was psychotic at one point. It did not help that my doctors could not agree on a diagnosis and were unable to explain the problem to me. One famous Indian doctor went into denial when he saw me because I come from his clan. So I self medicated myself and things only got worse. Finally I was taken to India where a patient has no right to refuse treatment. The second doctor I met there diagnosed me and we had a long conversation about ayurvedic herbs. He told me that because of the stigma attached to psychiatric illnesses, no effective ayurvedic herb till date has been discovered. There is one generic mineral to cure all psychiatric illnesses but it has awful side effects which include death. My doctor has spent his career in the Indian army and has travelled to the remotest of regions where Western drugs have yet not reached. He told me what I told you before - psychotic villagers are still killed, they are not treated. If a company is selling Ayurvedic drugs for bipolar, it is a scam because they do not exist in Ayurveda. These days, most Indian doctors study Western medicine so they can get a job in a fancy hospital in a big city, some doctors study homeopathy but I have not heard of anyone pursuing Ayurveda. There are very few innovations happening in that field and if there were, Indian doctors would be the first to hear of it.

Just the other day, I was going through some organic products site and they were selling organic Indian washing soap for $30 a sack. It costs less than $1 in India. There is a lot of trickery and hogwash on websites out there.

Sheeba

Shebsy,

Thank you for responding.  I really am smart enough to know that there is a "snakeoil" salesman on every corner.  I guess I was just grasping at straws, anything to keep me from realizing the truth.  But I have come to accept it.  My new med is doing great but this morning i have a rash on my neck and chest but I changed soap last week also, so I am thinking it may just be contact dermatitis and hopefully not a react to the med.  I will give it a day or two and see if it clears up then call PDoc if not better.

Have a great day and I will talk to you soon!