nancyjay,
I'm sorry to hear you're in such a state. I seriously hope that you will call 911 before you hurt yourself. But if you're thinking bleak thoughts and you need someone to talk to ASAP, you can of course come onto the board here, or you can contact the
National Suicide Hotline
1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)
This is a combined network of the Amerian Association of Suicidology, the National Hopeline Network, CONTACT USA, and many other organizations. Call are automatically routed to the nearest crisis center to the phone from which the call for help is placed.
Helpful Web Sites:
www.SuicideHotlines.com (listed by state)
www.Suicidal.com (includes Suicide Crisis Center and Depression and Suicide)
Good luck you you and don't wait for the suicidal thoughts to get out of hand. Didn't you say you were going home to see your old doctor this week? Hopefully that will help too.
serafena