i need to be in the hospital with my bipolar dont want to go to er, would dr preadmit me?

i dont want to go to er because I am agraphobic and i would go to panic to go into a crowded er. My dr intimidates me, I dont want to even call him to tell him how I am feeling, I called him only one time about something and he was very rude.I feel so alone and dont know what to do. My husband who is usually very supportive these 20 years of marriage didnt act like he really cared last night, like here we go again. he has NEVER acted like that which makes every symptom worse. i am alone in a new town with no friends. I am so scared of going in the hospital here, the one i have been to twice was so nice, i dont want to be shut up on one floor of a mental ward. who should I call? should I call the hospital and ask them about their psyc ward? i am so confused and mixed up I dont know what to do. I just need a caring person to answer this even if no advice is given. thanks