recently i went to see my psych and nurse. thry tested me for several reasons. one thing they discovered was that i have adhd. ive felt for a long time that i had ocd, but never even thought about
adhd. i windered if any of you are bi-polar and also have adhd. how do you handle that. i have been bi-polar for the past several years. i am 49. i always just felt that any of those types of symptoms were just the bi-polar. i also have fibro. i thought that not being able to concentrate was just the fibrofog. basically, with everything i have, im a mess. i just dont know how long i can hang on. honestly if it werent for my husband and child(19) i dont know if id still be here. i also have hypothyroidism, chronic pain and fatigue, tmj, ibs, severe restless legs syndrome, anxiety and depression, and i cant remember what else. i think thats too much for 1 person to have to deal with. i didnt need another diagnosis on top of all that. im just so sick of being sick. my husband and daughter always bear the brunt of whatever i have. my bi-polar makes everyone have to walk on eggshells, but that really doesnt help. ill go off at the drop of a hat. i dont know why they still love me. i can be very unlovable at times. i really have a tough time forgiving myself. i really, really dont like myself. i know there are people who are worse off than me and that just makes me feel worse for complaining. i really have only 2 friends and i think that because of how i am now, its very difficult to make nes friends. im not out much and i think i come on too strong. i used to be so sociable and have alot of friends. ive lost all that. its hard to make friends when youre home all the time. even my "friends" from church dont even call. i dont understand that. ive always tried to reach out to them when they were having a hard time. whatever happened to "treat others as you would want to be treated"? ok. enough complaining. im going to try to do as least one thing productive today. sorry about
all the "ravings of a lunatic"! thanks to all who made it to the end of my saga.