my gf suffers. so do i. BP.

Hey,

Well, I've been together with my girlfriend for a year by now. Already before we were together, it was tough sometimes.. since I never knew what's going on now and then. And took it all in.

Firstly, she makes me the happiest person on the earth. But at times - saddest one, too. So.. this issue is with feeling not good enough. She thinks she is just an accesory for me, I don't take her seriously and will walk away as soon as the first chance appears.

Today, first time in a long time, she told me, that she feels alone and this won't change. She just can't believe me. It's like she gives up on me. She says the reason for her feeling this bad is my last weekend's visit (went to see someone, she knows I once liked a lot). She is sure that I don't care for her all that much anymore.

I've been having all this over and over again. I love her to pieces. She is the most important person in my life. But living with her sometimes tears me down, makes me feel mad and depressive, often sad. But then again - there's so much more happiness when it's all well and right. She has been treated for BP already 6 years.

I hate her having glass of whiskey or smoking. It breaks my heart seeing her struggle. And there's nothing worse than sentences - I hate my life. I'm feeling alone. It will never get better. I'm tired.

Breaks my heart..
My best wishes to all the people here who knows.. how it is.. to live with BP in your house. You are strong and admirable!

E.

Hello endy,

Welcome to healwell's bipolar forum.  I would think that since you are both bipolar you would be able to understand each other's moods a little more.

Firstly, are you both seeing a psychiatrist regurlarly and taking your medications?

Things must not be right for her since she is self medicating.  Either the meds are doing it's job or she is just trying to push her saddness further down and out of her mind.

If so, maybe you both need to get involved with a therapist.  Maybe you girlfriends trusts issues are more deeper that labeling it as bipolar. 

I don't like how a lot of people try to rationalize all of our behavior traits to having bipolar.  Lots of times our feelings and actions are justified to what we are dealing with in our lives.

There must be a reason why she doesn't trust you.  Did you do something to her that would cause her to feel this way?  How would you feel if the shoe were on the other foot.  Would you have questions and feelings that would bother you about a situation like that coming from her?

Just some things to think about.

Hope things work out well for both of you.

Hi endy and jenniflower,

I'd like to echo sukay's welcome. I hope you both enjoy HealingWell and find what you need here.

Thanks for joining and welcome to the board!

serafena