what does your mania episodes consist of????

 

 

hi everyone just wanted to know what your manias looks and feel like. My mania episodes consist of euphoria with the case of the giggles i become very sexual and very demanding with racing thoughts and i get very imaginative i can multi task but anger quickly if someone gets in my way just thought i list a few.  

I'm BPII so i get hypomanias. Most are very good and provide a good influence in my life. I've been nicknamed Happy Bill by almost everyone who knows me. Yes i have the crazy sex drive also even on meds i am still very very VERY interested in sex LOL LOL LOL Did i get my point accross well enough/ lol lol Let me put it this way, last week my wife and i had **** star quality type night.LOL LOL LOL But after it was done i was having a bad hypomania night and i found myself cruising the adds on craigs list for more sex. That is the part of my mania that scares me very very much as i am trying very hard to be a good husband. But boy when that sex drive kicks in there is nothing i wont try or do, and i''m stone sober when i do. Its just my mind is just rocking with thoughts and feelings and racing at a hundred miles an hour.

Off my meds i was super creative, on my meds not so much. However i understand that sacrafices need to be made so i can still function as a normal person.

Do i get bad hypomanias, from time to time, normally once every couple of months so not that bad. When i get them i have to take a few days off to recover, they wear me out that much.

But on a normal day i have an elevated mood and energy, with a true hypomania episode about once a week. Very little depression to speak of but when it hits it hits very very hard.

All in all i try to accept this as my life and i just have to live it to the best of my ability. Now if i can just get my wife onboard with the "more sex" program. LOL LOL




Bill

On good days it's little sleep, hyper focusing on tasks, chores, and errands, making lists ( endless lists) starting projects that never get finished, picking up new hobbies or regaining interest in old ones, overwhelming hypersexuality that sometimes blocks out any other thoughts, increased ability to meditate and gain trance state, dancing about the house singing, cleaning the house or the garage with a spring cleaning attitude constantly. little to no appetite, and a general amazing feeling that puts me in a great mood.

On the bad days, it's bouncing off the walls with energy, tremors, quick to anger if someone annoys me or gets in my way, jumpiness, paranoia, anxiety, delusions, overspending on things I want or things we need but can't afford yet, irrational behaviors, hypersexual behavior to the point of blocking out everything else around me that needs to be done or making poor decisions in order to get my desires fullfilled, full blown insomnia, massive intake of caffiene or energy pills to sustain the 'energy high' or excessive drinking to bring me down, increased chance of drug use namely hallucinogenics or OTC drug abuse, binge eating or starvation dieting.

thankfully I haven;t had a really bad manic episode in many years, though I've come close, but realized I was getting out of control and been able to reign myself back in.The fear of getting out of control scares the willies out of me.

I don't either, sukay. I wish.

I'm sorry Bill,

I didn't mean to make light of a truly serious problem. :)

Hugs,
All my best,
serafena

Hello everyone, I'm new here! Decided to take to Google to find some message boards with people like myself...bipolar 2, or as my 2nd psychologist said "mildly bipolar." I've always understood consequences of my manic and depressive actions so thankfully I've never done lasting harm to myself. I'm a very transparent person, but I decided to mask my identity with the sharing of my true thoughts regarding my mood disorder as to not "upset the establishment," hurt the few close friends and family members I have, or...lose my job. I've even started a blog, and twitter to allow my thoughts and feelings to manifest themselves and find others like me. Also as ways to monitor my behavior.  

It's refreshing to read your responses and see so many of the same feeling I go through. I already feel welcomed among you.

As for my hypomania, it's not usually physical, more of a mental adrenaline rush. I work in a creative field. I run two radio stations. Been doing radio since I was 18 - I'm 30 now. When I was younger I never knew why my thoughts would begin to race and why I'd have intense, and some over the top, ideas to generate great programming and content. But in the past few years, I now know it's the mania that drives those creative visions. It's a gift. The mania has been channeled into success. However, when it's not there, and I'm feeling useless, I've gotta fight with every mental exercise I've learned to fend off boredom and negative thoughts.

I think the other thing most present in my mania is small shopping sprees. Again, I'm pretty good recognizing dire consequences, but to fight that boredom and feel like I've accomplished something I'll go shopping. Sometimes buying clothes I don't need. Sometimes impulse purchases at Target (did I really need THAT on blu ray!?).

I wish I had some of the physical energy some of you speak of. It would provide great fuel for my workouts!

Ugh, and since I did create this identity to be totally candid and keep sharing my manic thoughts. The mania sends me into some fits of **********. More times during the day than I need to. My conscious keeps me from "using" women, as I don't want to hurt anyone, and without much of a social circle I don't meet many women are interested in strictly physical relationships, which is about all that can keep my interest. Also, if a work out at the gym was good, and my confidence is through the roof, I'll wind up taking dirty phone pics to share with 'friends' or potential partners.

Thanks for listening!