My dad is bi-polar.

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im posting on here because my dad is bi-polar.

he has been depressed for as long as i can remember but has only been diagnosed for the last 5 years or so with bi-polar disorder.

he has been a miserable so and so for all my life which means that our relationship isn't very close and neither is his relationship with my sister who is 19.

i think she has had it worse as she is 7 years younger than me and has been living with him through the worst years that he has had.

i haven't lived at home for sometime.

i miss my dad, there seems to be nothing left there of the man that used to be the life and soul of the party, the one that threw epic parties and had friends in abundance.

But no one is there anymore becuase he can't make the effort to see anyone.

as he gets worse the harder it gets for my mum, she is losing the man she married 26 years ago and it kills her because he is no longer interested in her and barely acknowledges her exsistance.

i don't know how to help her or him i am all she has to talk to, my sister has dysthemia and like most depressives her world exsists with her and her alone. she is lonely.

my dad was on tablets (i dont know what they were called) but he has come off them as he said that he was totally numb and felt out of it on them.

he is slightly more responsive now but there are no manic highs any more there are only the seriously low, lows.

i don't know what im here for really, i think i just needed to vent a little.

thanks for listening.