/what crazy thing did you do while in the manic state of Bipolar?

(hi. CRAZY things i did when i was in mania and how i felt when in mania (bipolar type 2))
*scared my 13yrs old nephew to death(he started bleeding alot from nose only by witnessing my behaviour on 1st day of mania)
*dropped university
*didnt sleep for 111 hours
*walked naked at home infront of family
*stole a car
*crashed a rented car
*drove dangerously on highways 150-170 km/hr for 5 hours
*wondered around the city in cold of winter many times carrying a stick immitating Moses
*bought 2 flight tickets to two destinations one 200km away from toronto and one 4500km away departing at 7am same date
*believed i was the saviour for months
*Hearing God on daily basis telling me to perform an incredibly difficult task for any human
*smoked tons of weed, salvia, did cocain, crack, and drunk wine for the first time b/c i was curious what happens when you drink Jeses blood
*got arrested by police 3 times in one month
*mispend all money i could access (all my university budget, credit cards, older brother cash money)
*wrote on the door and on walls of my room
*hang a soccer ball from the centre of my room ceiling using duct tape
*i was convinced that i had a cure for cancer
*using a kitchen knife i cut a cross on my left arm and then went to church to learn about Jesus
*wanted everyone to shed blood and die to become sin free
*hearing a voice in my head telling me what to do(which i exactly did)
*turned into a wolf(howling in quarantine of mental hospital, and in public)
*my belief toward God was unbelieveably big
*was in euphoria 24/7 of the first 3 days of mania and after that i was suffering from loss of sleep for 5 days and extreme activity in my brain worse pain i ever had (i rather go through anything but never ever that pain again (maybe hell feels like that))
*was feeling very close to Imam Ali(as) and Jesus.
*entered a church sat down and wailed for 20 mins
*couldnt control my laughts, crys, yelling, and racing thoughts
*standing infront of the large screen at the movies and yelling my name loud
*being obsessed with anything associated with number 5 and the color yellow (yes it did get me in lots of troubles)
*started singing about Jesus louldy in the centre of mall where a band was playing children music(yes my song was synchronized with their music, nobody knew where did all this music talent and stage courage come from)
*beat up Stephen Harper(mid-aged gentlemen also suffering from bipolar)
*broke into my girlfriends house and then called the police telling them someone broke in
*stopped using condoms, wanted to impregnate any girl i slept with
* people, family, and friends could only talk to me if they waited 3-5 seconds after i was finished talking(yes i did count after i was done talking, and if they broke my rule i would hit them, jump them, yell at them, and if they were lucky i would just walk away from them)
*driving with left eye, right leg or right eye, left leg
*acting noticeably odd and perfectly normal in public within minutes
*felt incredibly optimist

CRAZY things i did and how i felt when i suffered from bipolar type 2 depression:
*slept, ate, gained about 40 lbs, completely bacame apathetic to everything and came up with 7 ways to commit suicide

!OMG!
For me, this could be a bit of an eye opening topic. The start of the topic might be a bit old, but I really want to react.
I Just recently sought help after I have been sedating myself with, for example, alcohol and valium for years. This obviously lead to a major suicidal depression. I have been treated for a psychotic episode in the past, but the help never continued due to other factors.

I have to stress that no official diagnose has been made at this point yet, for I need to sober up first. But two professionals have been mentioning the term bipolar already. After being a bit shocked, I started to lookup the symptoms. I did not really agree with the symptoms. I didn't have the manic side of these and just the depressions sounded utterly familiar to me.

So I visited this very enjoyable thread. Not enjoyable in the fun-sense of things, although some things sound really funny, but more in the "LOL I know that feeling" way.

So here goes:

• Thinking my parents hired a hitman, because they got fed up with me and thus seeing those red laser dots in my room that I have to avoid
  
• Overspending money by excessive gambling, reached around $100K a year in peak-times, thank God I have a good job (and a lot of loans now of course)
  
• Just overspending money I don't have in the general way by buying extremely expensive stuff that is not really needed
  
• Removing mirrors from the walls to make sure there are no cameras behind them
  
• Being totally bisexual from time to time, but when I am at ease or depressed, not at all. So when my doctor asked for any sexual outbursts, I probably should have said yes...
  
• Raging out to my wife for not cleaning our apartment the way I want it to be cleaned (I really liked the 'half-ass cleaning' reference earlier)
  
• Getting arrested by the police on a DUI, twice in one week, could have been more
  
• Partying
  
• Stealing
  
• Drugs, now I can see why I always have a tendency to this stuff
  
• Planning holidays on a tight budget, note: I live in Europe, and ending up with a 2 to 3 week holiday, containing the major cities in the US, Hawaii, and preferably something else
  
• Having the feeling, and relying on the fact that I am always lucky in the end
  
• Reading my own post over and over again, and edit it every 5 minutes. Tried to not do it, couldn't help myself
  

And I could probably go on.
I could just think the stuff I did, or do, is normal, because they are normal to me.
Maybe because of the booze, I cannot really separate the ups from the downs, but I reckon they are there.

Post Edited (C-1980) : 7/27/2011 5:37:26 AM (GMT-6)

Hi everyone, I recently got diagnosed for Bipolar II, and reading all of your posts have helped me so much, thank all for sharing! I don't feel so alone anymore.. its a great feeling to know you're not the only one dealing with this life long disease.

Some of the things (that I CAN remember) that I have done while going through a mania episode are:


I Cheated on my boyfriend with his older jackass cousin by sending him racy photos over text.. and to my surprise he showed almost every guy in my school.
I also kissed this guy, something i would have never done if done in the right mind set.
I drank alcohol at school and got totally drunk.. started telling everyone in my last period that i loved them.
Stole a senior girl's boyfriend when i was a freshmen and then left the guy as soon as he broke up with the girl
I would talk extremely fast and was excited about everything!
Felt like I was high on drugs or totally intoxicated.. felt like I was on top of the world.
Started smoking weed on a daily basis with my bf..
I am extremely horny.. me and my bf went through 4 boxes (90 count) of condoms in just one summer
I dress totally promiscuous and my behavior is totally eccentric and unapologetic regardless of who you are to me.
I pierced my tongue and ears on a whim
I flirt with everyone... everyone..
I feel as if i am bisexual and i am barely finding is out overtime i go into mania.. but i have done nothing about that though THANK GOD. (straight as can be) I also thought my art professor had a crush on me.
I broke one of my house windows with my bare hand just because i couldn't wait for my mom to open the door with the keys.
Drive recklessly. Speed constantly and I stop for NO ONE. I have ALMOST gotten so many tickets before but i charm the officers.. and they let me go with a warning.. thank goodness..
Thought that every intuition or feeling I got came from god because god was sending me messages through those thoughts and/or feelings.
I am EXTREMLY paranoid that EVERYONE is out to get me, it plotting to hurt me or humiliate me for the things i have done.
I either believe that everyone loves me and is my friend or they are my enemies that hate my very existence.
I think that everything a person says or does refers to me (good or bad).
Thought I was in love with a guy i met in college after have two classes with me.. i Felt like he was the ONE.. (i am still fighting through this crazed thought..)
I have spent so much money! Online shopping for anything and everything that comes to mind.
The walls appeared to be moving to me
I thought i was some sort of magnificent artist and writer and wrote these awful poems to this guy i was talking to and he showed them to everyone.. just to hurt and humiliate me i guess..
I almost jumped off my roof just to feel an adrenaline rust.
For about 2 years I would sing from the top of my lungs in my room when no one was home despite the fact that i knew that my neighbors could hear me.. they still don't look or talk to my the same.
I believed that reptilian people rule the world and that my professor, co-worker, and counselor were in fact shape shifting creators on disguise.
I felt like my professor could read my thoughts, was stocking me, and could see things through my eyes like some sort of magical portal.
I thought that demons and satan were making my do all these crazy things and that demons were walking around in human suits
I felt like i was the most special person that there could be and that i has super human powers and that i could make people do anything i wanted them to do just by thinking a thought.
I would get mad and everything and anybody for no reason at all

Things i have felt/thought/done while depressed:
That I should just kill myself because everyones life would be better without me.
I felt sad for the things i owned because they were in the possession of something so utterly despicable.
I wanted to jump off of my roof to kill my self
I wanted to crash my car into oncoming traffic
I would cut into
I started smoking cigarettes to slowly kill myself.. but i quit because i didn't have energy to smoke
I sleep all the freaking time.. being tired makes me tired and being awake is the hardest thing to possibly live through
I eat NON STOP even when i am full to the tip top
I cannot talk, my brain can't process fast enough to do so.
Life is not worth living.. but i can only hope for the better time to come.
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