red lightening said...
Started 20mg. Celexa after just 10mgs. for many months.
Came off Abilify and on 50mgs. Lamictal.
I am wandering fromroom to room not sure what to do,
I am praying and breathing deep.
At the same time I am anxious I feel tired like my head is full
of granite gravel and I have a song that won't quit playing over
and over...burn burn like a wicker cabinet...la la la la la la
I'm wondering how I'll get through the day. Yesterday I wondered
how I could possibly get a cake from the grocery store for a presentation
my husband is giving today. I did get it done though.
I am embarrassed at what my teen ager will think of me today. he
loves me though.
Sorry I'm rather directionless today
I hope you are feeling better today, every day I ask myself how am I going to get through the day. And somehow I manage to. Everyday I make a list of things I'd like to get done and I feel good if even get to mark off one or two things, then I make a new list the next day. I think being bipolar can be exhausting but I don't how to be any other way.
Don't worry what your son thinks, I have a teenage son and I know he loves me just the way I am. Besides teenagers are pretty wrapped up in finding themselves and can be
kind of self absorbed so he/she might not be noticing that much. But you know he/she loves you. My children have always known me the way I am, it's what is normal to
them I guess.
Don't be hard on yourself, we are all trying to do the best we can and sometimes it's really hard and sometimes things don't get done but then we get a new day to try.
"Normal is overrated"