Hi everyone :)
I woke up this morning way earlier than usual.... felt completley refreshed.. which is also very unusual :) and I went straight to my mood chart I have been keeping ... I know im getting hypo today ... I have noticed that I have been "normal" for two weeks now..... with no switch in mood.... its very strange , bc I ahve never gone that long before.... its usually no longer than three days during my mood switches...
My first visit with pdoc is thursday .. looking forward to that .... so much has happend over the past two weeks ... I have been working alot .. which I truly beleive helps with moods.... also I have been very sick with pneumonia the past week .... BF and I have gotten into numerous fights about numerous thigns ... sigh... mostly the kids ... But mostly he jsut creeps me out .... I have been talking to my family about the things he does and they think its strange as wel .... He is seeming more and more jekyll and hyde like .... its creepy....
For instance: one day last week before I left to go to work , he was saying how happy he was that he was able to stay home with the kids ( our work hours are different) that way it saves me money , not having to pay a sitter , and he was all " well do whatever it takes " etc etc
That night when i got home from work he is screaming at me when I walk in the door " I dont know why I am stuck here babysitting every night , I cant take it everyday"
Which was really confusing.... as you could probably imagine.. considering our conversation earlier that day ....
last week when I became ill and was running high fever... he thought it was jsut depression and was calling me names like droopy.... which is jsut cruel ... but then he got sick and I hate to admit it , but that made me feel better ha ha he shouldne have called me names for being sick... or because he thought I was depressed ... .serves him right....
yesterday ... he was happy , upbeat , playing with the kids .... he was himself .... This morning he got up and was annyed that he couldnt find something ... then he sat on the couch and stared ... so I asked " are you ok?" He sd " what do you mean , am I ok??" " I have alot on my mind, but that doesnt mean im not ok!!" " why would you ask me if im ok??" I sd ummmmm..... bc you are jsut sitting there staring into space with a worried look on your face , and you dont look ok.....
yesterday he begged me to take the day off work bc I was still running fever... saying things like : you need to rest " and this morning hes all in my face " what are you going to do today?? arent you going to get things done before you go to work?? Im like .. yeah ... ok .... you can go to work now ....
Im seriously wondering whats up with his moods..... He has " traits of aspergers " meaning he doesnt have it full blown.... but his son does.... so im wondering if its the aspergers .... or something else .....
He is beginning to seem more and more like ME......