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Posted 9/7/2010 1:54 AM (GMT 0)
We all know my fabulous work history.  rolleyes    But I need a reason to stay alive.  I think I need a job.

All of my experience is with dog training, grooming, kennels, boarding, etc.  Except a brilliant stint as a technical writer/administrative assistant.

I'm done with dog stuff.  The job market sucks around here.  Odd jobs working from home isn't cutting it.  This isn't about income.  It's to keep me aline.

Ideas?

Posted 9/7/2010 10:42 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Tortise,

I haven't been following your job history so I don't know why your are through with dog stuff but I was going to suggest dog walking?

Are you looking for something "mellow"?  If so, I had always thought about working in a small book store, used book store or library.

If I think of anything else, I'll let you know.

blush

 

Posted 9/7/2010 1:04 PM (GMT 0)

   I have to agree with you, my jobs keep me "in the game" so to speak. First there is the financial reward, life and BP isnt so stressful with money coming in.

  Second is the good will and possitive growth a good job and workplace can provide. In the last two years i have found that i have leaned harder and harder on my jobs as my marriage went downhill. Now that i am seperated i am glad i have the jobs to keep me busy.

   Third is keeping busy. Alot of my problems with bP also came when i wasnt busy and had idle time to fill. To much idle time lead me down the wrong path more than once.

  Good luck tortise, i hope you find something good for  you.

 Bill

Posted 9/7/2010 1:56 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks Sukay. :) I need something more structured. I'm thinking office work. I'm actually an amazing receptionist. lol Not sure where that part of me came from. :)

I'm trying to get into some support groups, I have a therapy starting Thursday, and a dance class starting next week. I'm in a dangerous place right now and I know I shouldn't be alone. If I don't find something to live for, I won't be alive.

I have no interest in my favorite things. Library books I was so excited to have sent here are untouched. I'm selling off my rabbitry. This is not good.

But getting a job has always triggered elevated mood. I could use some of that right now.
Posted 9/7/2010 3:17 PM (GMT 0)
Tortoise...I'm in the same boat. I need a job to stay alive bc I'm going down fast.
That's great you have some things planned like the dance class. I'm thinking of
going to the gym but i probably won't. A receptionist job sounds good...do you know
the computer programs? That would keep you around people and hopefully not be too
stressful. It is a very difficult time to get a job in a book store. I have tried for months.
The big book stores like Barnes and Noble are having financial trouble due to Amazon
and Kindle. And I've found the smaller book stores are family run and operated or just don't
hire very much. Good luck with the job hunt...I'm in there too...don't give up!
Posted 9/7/2010 3:29 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks Red! Good luck to you! I'm thinking about applying for unemployment. I know I'm eligible. A little money to help out with buying work clothes would be nice. So would the requirement of applying for 2 jobs a week. I said I need structure. :)
Posted 9/7/2010 9:19 PM (GMT 0)
I think I'm over the suicidal hump. I talked to an old friend and she gave me a to-do list. I love her because she is totally rational.

Still thinking about a job.
Posted 9/7/2010 10:55 PM (GMT 0)
Y'know, just when I think I have it figured out, it changes. I have been depressed all week. But because I was calm and relaxed, I didn't realize it. I marked in my mood chart from "Okay" through "Excellent." hmmmm....

It is just really wierd. I was so busy "putting on clean undies" and preparing to kill myself in a calm, thoughtful, and productive way, I didn't have any of my classic depression symptoms.

Something new to look out for now.
Posted 9/8/2010 12:02 AM (GMT 0)
whoa...
thats scary, tortoise, but i've done the same thing..
not recognized depression symptoms when they are differnet than the usual.

GLAD you're doing better now.
don't confuse calm with OK.. calm before the storm is what i always said..

((((tortoise))))

i hope you find a job soon, and yes unemployment helps a bit wiht structure and money$$$$
Posted 9/8/2010 6:34 AM (GMT 0)
Yay for jobless people! Nah... seriously, though. I'm in the same boat. I haven't been working successfully for nearly 4 years. The last two jobs I had only lasted a day because I became psychotic, one time being hospitalized again. I won't even start to get into my job history at the moment... i just signed up for this site and all...

It's especially hard to find work when there is such a long blank in job history... trying to explain it all doesn't quite help getting the job, ya know? Saying, "Well, I'm a student" can only get me so far... it becomes suspicious when I haven't gotten any degrees yet... haha.

Starting to take classes and such can be helpful... but having a job is really what brings a sense of accomplishment and a reason to feel alive. Reception work is always a good way to go, I've found. I haven't been too successful with retail or restaurants since my symptoms rarely go into deep depression but I get mixed-mania and sometimes become psychotic when too many people are around.

Sorry to talk about myself so much... I hope all is well with you... and you... and you... and all of you on this nifty forum :-)
Posted 9/8/2010 1:19 PM (GMT 0)
I have always been VERY careful to cover up my work history. My resume is straight down the line dog training. I kept a SMALL dog training business running for the last 6 years to cover my bum. Now, I'm a stay at home mom.

But he starts school in 2 years and I'm already worried about that!

I live in the freaking middle of nowhere. But I found out there is a HUGE multi-million (billion?) dollar company that has an office here that is hiring 8 positions right now. Nothing I can do. But I think I will dress up a resume for administrative work and send it in. It's RIGHT here - most jobs require a 2-hour-per-day commute - NOT going to happen! And with being such a big company, they'll have a REAL HR department and be able to help me out with diability accomodations. I can do pretty well if I can take some 1/2 days off when things get bad, and use a service dog. Too bad my dog is not yet trained. Not even remotely close to trained. I miss my old dog. He was totally awesome and got me through a semester of school. Right up to the point that I ended up in the hospital and withdrew. :P

So I found what I want and I will slowly work towards it.

There is a company about 25 minutes drive away that would hire me. It is a dog company and they fell in love with me the first time I walked in to buy food. They also train service dogs and are familiar with disability law. Sweet! :) I told them I'm loving the stay-at-home-momma thing and they asked me to contact them when he is in school. So worst-case scenario, I should be OK.

I have my mojo back. :) I have motivation to do my own thing. My relationship is doing much MUCH better, although he still won't talk much about it and he didn't sign up for a family-of-sever-mentall-illness class. Dissappointed. :(

I am at risk for going into a too-elevated mood. I had a hard time sleeping last night. I had to sleep in the basement where it is totally BLACK, and even then, I kept waking up in the early morning. I am a little hyperactive - saying too much and typing to fast. Thoughts racing. I'm going to find something slow and calming to do.
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