I just need someone to talk to sometimes

I just need someone to talk to sometimes, maybe someone a little more like me who can somewhat understand my problems without having to gain trust.I have rapid cycling bipolar. At the moment i am depressed for the 7th day in a row but it is getting better. I'm able to type and i think i might get mania soon.My life is very difficult. I don't take medication or get therapy. I would love to get therapy, but at the moment my car is broken down. I feel as if they would look down on me also.My mom denies my condition. She thinks its all in my head and i can control it by thinking positively but that is so not true.My dad doesn't know about it. I had a psychiatrist tell me and I never went back.I didn't trust him. I think i went into denial or something. That was about 2 and a half years ago.My mom took me for years and she would always get mad at me because it didn't help but it was because I wouldn't be honest with them and I will explain why later.Another reason was because before this last guy I went to told me about my condition, Everyone said I had add and depression and the meds never worked and I understand why now.Me being bipolar with no help is only the beginning of my problems, but this is all i will say for now.

  Hi to both of you, and yes, im not surprised you went into denial. No one ever wants to hear that they have a mental illness, i was 40 when i was diagnosed and it took all my coping skills, and efforts to come to grips with that fact. But once i accepted that and got help my life has improved a huge amount.

   Now i have to take something to control my manias, depression isnt so much of a problem for me. Now does the medication take away everything? No. I still have to fight the urges to do bad/stupid things. However with the meds i have a fighting chance to keep control of my mind, and thats more than i had before i started my meds.

   Now are there side effects to meds, yes. In my case there is weight gain and hair loss. But i can honestly say that  is a small price to pay for gaining control of my mind.

   I have made this a subject that my family has had to deal with. They wanted to deny it at first, but i stuck to it and told them it was the right diagnosis. Since then they have come to grips with it.

   Hang in there and keep posting. This site is filled with lots of great supportive people, there is lots  of great info they have to share.

   Bill

Hi there. I understand about the denial, I went through it for years. I was diagnosed as Bipolar 1 three times before I FINALLY accepted it and started treatment. My brother is also Bipolar, so that has helped with my family understand things, but my husband and his family are very much in denial and arrogant about everything. All you can do is ask for your family to help you through this, but you HAVE to get treatment. I learned that the hard way and nearly had my daughter taken away from me because my moods just got worse over the years. My family finally said get treatment or she's ours. I got treatment and it has helped so much. You never realize just hoe bad things are until they start getting better. Then, you look back and go wow, I really needed this and things ARE sooooo much better. Therapy is almost essential along with medication. The meds are a bit of a pain in the butt when you first start them, but once you and your doc find something that works, it's all worth it. Hopefully your family comes around soon. I also go through some rapid cycling, but mainly mixed episodes or full on mania and depression. There are MANY people on here that had been misdiagnosed, it seems to be pretty common. I know I was for years, especially in my teen years. Best of luck to you hun.

k, thanks....oops about the suicide thing.