Hi ! New here

Hi! Have enjoyed reading everyone's posts. I am Bipolar II Cymbalta 120 mg, Wellbutrin 300 mg.

Can someone pls explain Mixed episodes and Rapid Cycling?
What kind of therapist do you have? Is a psychologist the best? Has anyone done DBT?

Am stuck now for 9 mos. Last fall had many one disappointment after another. Had an Outpt surgery in Dec. very uncomfortable (trigger?Jan. my daughter miscarried, would have been 1st grandchild. (trigger?)
Took to my bed in Jan., and slept day and night for about 2 wks. except to eat, drink, smoke.
Then didn't necessarily sleep, but spaced out all day and night, some sleep, in bed all day
Don't want to do anything, including personal hygiene.
Husband has taken care of all household duties, feel a little guilty.
I'm sick of everything I used to do. NO sewing, crocheting, reading, cooking, baking, shopping, silk flowers, or gifts. They frustrate me and are definitely triggers.
I'm 60 now, and have decided to STOP taking classes regarding employment. I have no references, experience, and have had many short-lived jobs. People involved really get on my nerves. And few jobs in So Cal, why would they hire an old person?
For years now, have cut off family, except for son 33, and daughter 29, son is out of state but emails and calls, daughter lives 1 hr away, see for birthdays etc. She knows my dx. & wanted me to be hospitalized in Feb. Talked her out of it. Daughter and husband are support system.
And with all this I AM NOT DEPRESSED IN A SAD WAY ? ?
I JUST DON'T WANT TO DO ANYTHING ALTHOUGH I HAVE LATELY BEEN RESEARCHING AND READING about BIPOLAR. The reading says exercise (no way, I'd have to get dressed, and have to talk to neighbors), get out once a week and see a movie or something alone, ehhh, contact 2 loved ones every week (easy on phone & email, and hubby is here) Quit my pdoc, he was not helping and it had been 2 yrs. and mood stabilizers did nothing anyway. GP is refilling ad's. Have never had any progress with therapy, just seems like chit chat, LSW's. It's been 40 yrs now. 1st dx. in 70's schizophrenia, then major depression, pills didn't work (ad's) so they said I must be Bipolar II or Mixed. Very impulsive and make drastic decisions.
SO - WHAT THE HELL AM I? no mania, OK, maybe hypomania, and def hypersexuality (at 60, Hubby finds me fat, and fat is repulsive. Gaining wt. but hardly eat, but binge)

Would appreciate any advice you can give me. Sorry to be so wordy, wanted to state my case in full. Know you are all very experienced. Thanks everyone !

Do you feel like going in for a real evaluation with a psychiatrist might be beneficial to you?

I am just wondering how recent it has been? It might be something to think about given your issue about losing interest in things that use to give you joy? Or it could be an additional dx? I do not know, but I think it is always good to have a second opinion.

I am sorry I guess I misunderstood. When you said you were content, I thought that you meant disengaged? Maybe I am wrong?  Could fresh eye's hurt?  Especially since you said that it started 9 months ago?  I wonder if your surgery triggered something, beyond your bipolar?  I really do not know, but I am just thinking (well typing) out loud, tossing suggestions before you.

there is something to being engaged in life, even if to preform just the basic functions of life, but more importantly finding what makes life enjoyable?

But I am wondering if you really are content, or are you just trying to aviod the pain of engagement? Because when you do not feel well that engaging in life can be difficult.