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Posted 10/24/2010 8:52 PM (GMT 0)
I don't know how to describe that feeling when you're coming out of a mood episode.  Anyone know what I'm talking about?

I'm out of a few days of hypomania.  I was cycling before that, so I don't know if I'm getting some stability or heading into another round of mood issues.

I have been sleeping a lot to recover from the sleepless hypomania, but that puts me at high risj for oversleeping and falling off into depression.

I can't tell if I'm tired or depressed.  Leaning towards depression.

I called in sick yesterday.  :(  I need a break from this.

Posted 10/25/2010 3:39 AM (GMT 0)
Your mood situation is different than mine, but remember when I first came to the forum, I said I didn't feel sad-depressed, just wanted to stay in bed, sleep, daydream or whatever. Never did figure out that.
But your advice, and others, was to get on the basics program of sleep, and so when you are over this lack of sleep issue due to hypomania, I would urge you to get back into getting up on time for work, etc. They say you can't make up lost sleep anyhow. Be careful.
Some of this was brought on by not taking meds as prescribed.
Are you eating now and all that? Don't let the things you know are right for you fall to the wayside.
You put a lot of effort into getting the job. Hang in there.
Posted 10/25/2010 4:31 PM (GMT 0)
I'm not sure how I'm doing yet. TY for the kind words. Getting back on track with meds....
Posted 10/25/2010 6:25 PM (GMT 0)

hi tortoise,

Routine, eating, drinking lots of water, charting those mood swings of yours.....Do you journal at all? It may provide some structure to force yourself to stop and reflect on what is going on exactly and then you might be able to move forward in a more stable mind frame?

Hugs,

Mogs

Posted 10/25/2010 8:31 PM (GMT 0)
I blog (my version of journaling), but so out-of-date. I haven't had focus to type in days. :(

I'm feeling better now after a loooonng nap. I'm eating, but not well. (Think granola and ice cream). I'm drinking at least 32 oz of water at work in the morning. Plus milk, juice whatever during the day.

MY fiance is going on a week-long hunting trip, so I have to "get it together" quickly before then. We all know what happens.... BUT this time I have the structure of an early-morning job, so maybe it will be OK?
Posted 10/27/2010 11:32 AM (GMT 0)
Sorry your having whiplash tortoise. I think i know that feeling too.
With the structure of a job and other people around I think it will really help.
Try to get some fruit and veg in there dear... its good ur drinking plenty of water~
Keep us updated ok?
Posted 10/27/2010 4:55 PM (GMT 0)
Here is mood chart - http://www.medhelp.org/user_trackers/show/311129?go_to=timeline_slider&start_date=2010-07-14

I was SO stable before I got the job. :( Today I've been in a slightly elevated mood. I have to go to a dentist appointment now, and I'm starting to freak out. I have HUGE dentist phobia - so bad that I haven't been to a dentist in about 16 YEARS. I have a toothache I can't ignore.

So scared...
Posted 10/27/2010 10:13 PM (GMT 0)
LOLOL. Yup. Elevated mood! The dentist appointment was fine. I took double my dose of Klonopin. Got the BEST assistant and dentist I could hope for. Told them about my everything, and the assistant showed me what all the tools were and whate they were for. I told the dentist that I was afraid of numbing most. I got the surprise jab in the roof of the mouth treatment when I was a kid. She was really awesome and it didn't hurt at all.

So I don't get to see the same assistant next time, but I will always have the same dentist from here on out.
Posted 10/27/2010 10:19 PM (GMT 0)
Good for you, and you're so excited you didn't even say what the poor tooth got done to it.
I think you will have good luck with assistants if you explain yourself like you did to the one today. It keeps them on their toes if nothing else. Great improvements in dentistry thesse days.
Posted 10/27/2010 10:37 PM (GMT 0)
I had a "pre-root-canal" and a temporary filling. I have to go in and have EVERYTHING else taken care of before my insurance will cover a root canal. This involves wisdom teeth .... :puke:

But she made me smile. She said considering that I hadn't been to a dentist for so long that my teeth are in good shape. :) I was surprised. I know the cavities I have are each directly linked to a depressive episode when I laid in bed for weeks without being ablt to shower or brush my teeth or change clothes or anything. :(
Posted 10/27/2010 10:42 PM (GMT 0)
That was a pretty "heavy" appt, glad you are considering getting all the dental work done.
Wisdom teeth, they knock you out, rough recovery for me and my kidds. But then, DONE
Dry mouth SE also contribute to tooth decay. Am looking for xylitol, in gum or candy next time I remember. Also some drug, Exovac, will ask my GP, tho she previously told me there is nothing.

Good for you !
Posted 10/28/2010 1:33 AM (GMT 0)
Godarn it! mad   I was *just* getting into a nice little hypomania and crashed into an angry near-depression.  Not happy about this.  No trigger.  No reason.  Just a f*%$-ing random ultraradian flip-flop.  skull   I WISH I could SLEEP.  I do NOT need this getting any worse.  OMG.  I can't take much more.  I've barely recovered from my last little hypomania/mania.  I am physically drained.. 

I have to get up for work in 7 hours.  I didn't get a nap today.  I am not sleepy.  It was a cute little hypomania, but now it's angry, ANGRY, agitated, can't sleep.  Agitated depression rather than dysphoric mania - if anyone is keeping track.

I am so lost.  I can't keep up with this and my #1 worry is if I will be OK for working tomorrow morning.  I've already lost 2 days (in 2 weeks) to bipolar.  The company I work for is really strict on attendance.  I don't want to have to deal with this. shakehead

Posted 10/28/2010 1:53 AM (GMT 0)
Tortoise,

Can you do what Julie Fast suggests and despite your mood just do it anyway.  Stay with your routine, get to bed, drink water, take medications, love on your dog, just wait for the mood to pass.  You will go to work and you will come home and keep getting everything in a routine and regulated.  Don't mess with those meds!!  Take sleep medicine or clonazapam.  Just get yourself through this.  You can do it.  You have done it before.  Just let it pass.  Don't react to your reacting to it - don't let it snowball.  Easier said than done I know.  Just remember there are people out here who care about you and want to see you do what you want to do.

Sun

Posted 10/28/2010 2:16 AM (GMT 0)
Well, maybe you can't identify a particular trigger, but it was a very stressful day for you. Won't Klonopin help with this?
You can't control this coming on, but you can control how you react to it.
Positive thinking, you WILL go to work tomorrow, you HAVE 76 hrs to rest, work is 4 hrs., you can make it. Know you will.
Posted 10/28/2010 4:42 PM (GMT 0)
Elevated mood again. Creeping towards hypomania. Will probably get ther in a couple hours. :P In a good way, not the irritable bad way. Hopefully it doesn't get too far into the bad stuff again.

BTW, I have ANOTHER pdoc appointment next week - trying to get this stuff under control.
Posted 10/29/2010 6:11 AM (GMT 0)
Freaking hypomanic. Grrr... It's 1 a.m. I'm wide awake and twitching like a live nerve. IF I could sleep, at this point I would only get 2-1/2 hours before I would have to get up for work. Hardly seems worth trying...
Posted 10/29/2010 10:48 AM (GMT 0)
Silly question, at this point, but do you follow the Flylady's bedtime routine?
Posted 10/29/2010 3:59 PM (GMT 0)
No. My bedtime used to be very regular, but now since my new schedule (getting up at 3:30/3:45 a.m.) I can't figure it out. Because to get 9 hours of sleep, I would have to go to bed at 6:30 p.m.! Which means only seeing my fiance an hour a day and going to bed before my 3 year old son.

IF I did that, then I would need to take Seroquel XR at 3:30 p.m. But IF I had to stay up later I would be essentially incapacitated by the Seroquel XR. AND on Wednesdays I don't get home until about 8:00 p.m. Even worse, on Thursdays, I often don't get home until 10:00 p.m.

So I CAN'T take Seroquel on Thursday nights or I won't be able to work (or drive, or focus my eyes, or walk) on Friday morning. On Wednesdays too, I'm not able to risk losing another day of work to Seroquel "hangover."

And of course, the Seroquel doesn't work unless it's taken EVERY night at the SAME TIME. So I'm totally screwed over and of course....

After only 2 hours of sleep, my hypomania is now growing. I used to love hypomania before I knew what it was. But now - especially since I haven't recovered from the last one, I am seriously ANGRY about getting hypomanic!
Posted 10/29/2010 4:58 PM (GMT 0)
Hmm, that is a dilemna. Seroquel didn't do that much to me. What does the doc say? I'm surprised it so instantly, well, almost makes you so tired you can't even drive home on it. This sounds like a big problem. To get on a schedule, you might need to forego some activity for a while, especially Wed & Thurs, like the Belly dancing, can you do that? Are there other times?

And what if you took regular Seroquel, not XR? or, Half a pill early, then one a little later in the eve. Is your fiance coming home at lunch? That's a nice time together that most couples don't get the opportunity to enjoy, might make you feel better to think about that since you are having less time in the eve. If not 9 hrs, at least 7-8 would be better than you now get.

And what do you think the Ser XR is doing for you? My therapist said take "crumbs" anytime you are anxious, not that I am suggesting "crumb" therapy, crazy, but she really thought it was good at anxiety. Does it do that for you?
Posted 10/29/2010 5:40 PM (GMT 0)
Looked this up, stand corrected:
# Take Seroquel XR by mouth, without food or with a light meal (approximately 300 calories), in the evening (for example, 3-4 hours before bedtime)
# Seroquel XR should be swallowed whole. Do not split, chew, or crush the tablets
Solrry I made the suggestion to split it.
Posted 10/30/2010 6:35 PM (GMT 0)
Better today. I took Seroquel XR at 3:30 yesterday. I also slept 17 hours! :)
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